Lovely Goddess; Cause Life is Damn Beautiful

i was just wondering.. does he (referring to a specific person) have the courage to tell me the truth? is he brave enough to go straight to my parent and tell them how much he wants me to be his wife? oh, sungguh terharu lah kan kalau betul-betul terjadi.. teehee..  to that person, i have given you so many clues to tell you that i know how you feel and i am feeling the same way but you just refused to read the signs...  siapakah manusia yang dimaksudkan, biarlah aku sorang saja yang tau~  mana boleh habaq kat sini, public ohh~ 

huhu.. hari ni tak tau kenapa tapi tetiba mood rasa tak baik sangat-sangat. tapi tak dak la sampai nak mengamuk dekat orang kan.. mula-mula pagi tadi punya eksaited sebab dapat main tennis. sekali bila da main, kena marah pulak ngan lecturer. okay, tak pa lagi taim tu. tapi bila orang yang teristimewa n tersayang ni masuk campoq jugak, aku dah tak tahan.. las-las meleleh gak air mata kat court tennis tu. seb bek yang menyaksikan peristiwa ni sorang ja. haha... nak cita kat sapa plak tak tau, sebab selalu cita kt yang teristimewa tu tapi dia cakap camtu lak tadi, tak kan la nak pi cita kat dia kot. malu la aku. =,=''.. so demi nak pujuk diri seniri, makan la eskrem. ni ja jalan nak cheer up aku. heheh. pastu, masa kelas EDU teman seperjuangan mesej, tanya kenapa nanges. wuwuwuwuwuw.. bila cita balik kat dia, aku nangis lagi. naseb baek tunduk n pensyarah pon tak bising. meleleh air mata jatuh. sedih tak tau nak habaq~~ seb bek la ada dia nak pujuk aku so aku end up ok la skit....

my weakness is i can't work in pair or in group ! i rather work alone even the work load is too much for me i can still bear it and be satisfied with it. i like it when the ideas are all mine and the hard work is all mine. when i have to work with somebody else, i get so unease. y ? especially among the people whom i think their superior and whenever i am with them, i feel inferior. i can hardly give opinion and it is hardly been heard. so when i'm in a group i rather listen and do rather than decide though i prefer to decide and give opinions.  i mean, i feel like they don't care what i'm talking about and i really have to gain their attention to even listen to my opinions. haha. so funny ain't it? so i ended up getting tired to gain their attention and to ask them to listen to me. that is why i dislike group work. 

okay, skang rasa sangat mengantukkkk !! ni gara-gara tidoq lambat semalam. pkul 2. harharr.. skyping..  tapi still leh fokus kat kelas and dengar apa lecturer dok cakap.  if ! dia keluaq japgi, nak tdoq jap. dah la bangun lambat. 6.40 baru bgun! tu pon jaga tekejut. huhu..  so, kalau bulih la, nak tidoq satt jaa..  my sayang petama x mai hari ni. sakit bahu lagi rasanya. kesian betoi... ada sayang kedua ja.  huhu..  sayang petama lak tak reply mesej, lagi la mengantuk. at least lau selalunya kalau mengantuk aku akn mesej ngn dia. rasanya dia tidoq lagi la kot skang sebab tu tak reply mesej aku. huhu.. okeh, bosannn !! 

okay, entry kali ni ditulis sebab rasa nak luahkan jugak apa yang terbuku kat hati.. i'm not the type of girl who likes to be under the spotlight. maksudnya, aku ni bukan jenis pompuan yang suka kejar popularity. aku suka dengan diri aku sekarang, aku happy n bersyukur dengan apa yang aku ada. biarlah aku tak kurus or tak selawa macam pompuan lain, tapi aku bahagia dengan pemberian-Nya.  and, aku paling pantang tok nenek kalau aku ni kena compare dengan orang lain. aduh, kenapa nak samakan aku dengan orang lain sedangkan setiap manusia tu berbeza. macam member aku ni cakap tadi, "am, kalau hang kurus mesti hang dah jadi macam *sum1*." erk, kenapa aku nak jadik macam budak (model lam maktab) tu pulak? aku sama ka dengan dia? kalau dia suka melawa 24 jam, tak kan aku nak melawa 24 jam jugak semata-mata orang tengok n puji kecantikan aku? (walaupun tak dak la lawa mana n budak ni bukan la menayang kecantikan dia, sebab dia memang dah cantik, jangan salah faham lak). betul...

assalamualaikum wbt n peace upon all.  hey guys, today i woke up a little bit earlier than usual, 10 minutes earlier from the usual days to be exact, and i also slept late at night the night before, at 1 a.m. luckily i was able to bring myself up and went to the class and followed my daily-life routines.   there aren't much to tell, it's just that our group received praises from the lecturer after we presented our presentation. haha. okay, the lecturer is rarely praising others so after we did quite a good job in explaining intonation and the functions of intonation 1 we felt relieved and proud of ourselves. well, it's me actually who felt that way, i didn't know about my other group members.  lawa la plak gambaq nih, sebab tu amek. haha well done ya kawan2..  anyway, after class my housemates went out living me and kak nurul at  home.  i did nothing much, (sleeping).. LOL.  i was sleepy probably because the lack of sleep the night before. s...

lau dah tau menantu tu bakal graduate luaq negara, memang la dia tak nak lepas kan~~ haishh... harap-harap mak aku tak memilih bab2 calon menantu nih.. :)