Lovely Goddess; Cause Life is Damn Beautiful

danger danger danger! i am very emotional right now. why? because i am so tired dealing with people. i really feel like running away from this but i know that is just not gonna solve anything at all. i need time to do the things that i like. today i feel like running away. but i can't. i still have things to do, to settle. i hope tomorrow is the day when i feel like i don't have any problems at all. 

how do i looked like if i have a moustache?  teehee  so which one suits me best?

things are falling apart.. i am in so much miseries but i believe in myself that i can handle it. but, allowance. tunggu la kau. dapat je kau nanti,teruk-teruk aku kerjakan. haha.

the result has come out today. mine? it is not something to be proud of. there are always people who are better than me. i know. i realize it. yet, i am not regretting any thing. i deserve as much as amount of what i have earned. i know that. alhamdulillah, my parents are happy with my result even though i myself do not feel satisfy with it. i am going to do my best. i pray for everyone's success. so, jom struggle sama-sama. hehe. 

 assalamualaikum wbt and peace upon all.. dengan ini nak buat pengumuman. laptop saya rosak.puncanya bermula dengan diri saya sendiri juga.sebab meninggalkan beliau di dalam kereta lantas kereta itu dipakirkan di kawasan yang boleh tahan panasnya. beliau yang tidak tahan panas lantas menghembuskan nyawanya yang terakhir di dalam kereta itu,alone. sedihnya. kesian laptop saya. lalu saya cepat-cepat menghubungi ayah saya untuk memaklumkan kepada beliau keadaan laptop saya itu. pada mulanya ayah saya cakap biarkan laptop itu sejuk dahulu. mungkin beliau pengsan or tidur sebab tu dia tak nak bangun. saya yang sememangnya mendengar cakap ayah saya sejak kecil membuat seperti yang disarankan. lalu saya tinggalkan laptop itu di dalam rumah lalu saya cepat-cepat berlari anak ke motorsikal hanim dan bergerak ke maktab.  setelah saya pulang dan setelah saya meninggalkan laptop itu,saya cuba menekan-nekan kembali jantungnya mengharapkan beliau hidup. tapi tapi tapi... ...

assalamualaikum wbt kawan-kawan..  :)  kali ni saya nak cakap pasal bunga. sebelum ni saya rasa saya pernah cakap yang saya tak minat sangat bunga. ada kan? kan kan kan? ha, tak baca lettew.. =,='  before this, saya bukannya anti terus bunga walau saya tak minat sekalipun. mungkin sebab dulu saya seorang yang sangat kasor (baca kasar). maklumlah, kawan-kawan masa kecik-kecik dulu kebanyakannya lelaki. kalau nak main masak-masak sekalipun,kena tunggu sepupu saya datang rumah saya dulu barulah boleh main masak-masak. masa tu,adik perempuan saya kecik lagi.mana la reti nak main masak-masak. saya banyak main dengan budak lelaki kat kampung saya. mungkin sebab tu jugaklah saya ni tak minat dengan bunga.  selalunya, orang cakap perempuan ni kebiasaannya minat dengan bunga. jadi perempuan yang tak minat bunga macam saya ni bukan perempuankah? jawapannya, mesti lah masih lagi perempuan sekalipun tak minat dengan bunga.  tapi tapi tapii...  ...

so,new semester for ipg's students is starting real soon. it is this monday . oohhh soo exciting . i have not yet gone back to ipoh.well,supposedly it should be this morning but something came up and i will leave at 3 am in tomorrow morning.  kemalasan nak mengemas baju-baju untuk dimasukkan ke dalam beg begitu ketara sekali. pagi tadi baru kemas kan semua benda.dah siap masukkan dalam beg.tinggal nak bersiap ja lagi.alih-alih,tak dapat balik hari ni.nak drive sorang-sorang komfem2 ayah tak bagi.so terpaksalahkan.. anyway,jadual kelas dah keluar.and jadual kali ni rocks! why? sebab hari jumaat free oh. awesome! dapat la bermalas-malasan hari jumaat tu sebab tak payah susah-susah g kelas. instead,boleh landing-landing dalam bilik sambil tengok running man. haha tak sabar menanti semester baru nak bukak. mungkin banyak gosip-gosip terbaru dari kawan-kawan dan mungkin juga ada yang dah bertunang.untung la..  so,i am wishing all best wishes to the students of IP...

it's funny how we always look at others' lives and think, 'how lucky the are and i wish to have such lives too.' okay,let's not be too general upon this. basically that's me when i read about how successful others are. especially those who are so so so lucky to have looks, brain, and buh-bling buh-bling things in their lives, good friends, i mean it, friendS. but behind all the fame and all the good stories, we (again..) i never look upon behind the stories. what they have to do to have such success. do i even worth it to be in their shoes, will i be able to withstand it and be strong as them? sometimes, my heart wanting the things i adore and forgetting about all those miseries that one's has to face in their life. i am just being human. right?  so, instead of copy-catting other's lives, how about i create my own life? my own history. be my own legend instead of hiding behind somebody elses' shadows. but of course do not be selfish. please...

presenting... matrix card yang huduh!!

assalamualaikum wbt.. ut sooooo, holiday is going to end very very soon.well,for school children only.i still have a week for holiday.i bet the other holiday for me will look like this. wake up lock the door because they have gone to school cook rice clean the house online (giggling) wait for mom to come back home i just got home from so called vacation. it was a vacation. it was fun. bought not so many things from there. but the car was full of strawberries and souvenirs. anyway, enjoy the picture. the dedication driver.hehe.my dad. i'm not really a fan of flowers but i think these flowers are gorgeous.  me and my bro cacti the boss the co-driver big and round cactus sumpah jeles bila tengok orang lain bawak dslr bagai.tapi aku amek guna kamera fon ja.haha. tak pa la.ada duit nanti,dapat la.insyaAllah. hihi

it's my lil bro. you know when budak kecik meragam tak tentu pasal. serba serbi tak kena. kalah orang nak pergi kahwin. well, adik aku pun ada jugak masa-masa bila dia jadik camtu dan benar-benar tersangat benar menguji kesabaran. aku tau, dia jadi camtu sebab dia mengantuk. you can see it the eyes you know and their annoying behaviours.  my lil bro menjerit-jerit kacau orang. semua tak kena. so i said to him, 'mengantuk pergi la tidur.' and he replied in a very funny remark, 'bukan mengantuk, penat ja..' -.-'  whenever people ask him to do something, mesti ada saja jawapan dia. tak terdaya nak layan. sometimes his answers can be so surprising. jawapan yang membuatkan orang pecah perut sebab ketawa. ni lah penyeri hidup bila ada budak kecik dalam rumah. tapi kadang-kadang mengganggu ketenteraman jugak. but that's life right. 

hey everyone.a very pinkish morning, ops, afternoon i mean to each and everyone of you. it's holidays man, so what i have been up to lately? well, when it comes to holiday these days, no more vacations to my family. my dad is super busy with his business and of course me and my sisters and also my mom will do the same routine every single day. wake up. cook. cleaning. reading. eating. chatting. playing with cats and baby cats and if i get lucky, i'll be able to play with baby, real baby.  anyway, last night i have been thinking a lot. well you know me. always do all sorts of thinking. but that is just it. thinking. thinking ONLY . no action. so nothing of what i have been thinking and planning in my mind will come to reality since i did not plan it thoroughly on paper. you see, i really love to write. even though my handwriting is very very very terribly ugly but still, i love to write.  i used to have a book with quotations. which i wrote beautifully (i personally ...