Lovely Goddess; Cause Life is Damn Beautiful

22nd May 2017 I went out early from my mother in law's house because I needed to stop by at my aunt's house in Bukit Beruntung. I was having a slight diarrhea at that moment. even my friend was saying, it wasn't gonna be long till the baby's arrival. so, i was okay and from that moment on i was pretty much aware of what was going on with my body.  so my aunt cooked this delicious meal but sadly it was too spicy. i ate it anyway because my aunt is a great cook. then i went to the clinic to check my blood pressure and everything, and the nurse was pretty mad at me because i came in late. so, everything went well for that day except for i had been feeling a little discomfort around my stomach area. i even went to the toilet quite a couple of time but nothing came out.  during my last class, the pain was becoming more severe. but i was still able to drive home and took bath. yes. i did went to the toilet and pooped and of course, it was in liquid form as i s...

I am always jealous with stay at home mother. they get to see their husband and do house chores. i know. what is so interesting with house chores? oh yeah, i promised to write stuff about what happened at work. so here goes. last tuesday we had this sukaneka at school. and i had to be the one who wrote down the winners and yes it was super exhausting. and the whole day, i was told to sit down. it was funny. even though i walked like a penguin i still wanted to do my job. i wanted to do my job well despite being 9 months pregnant. that was a lot actually. but then, i had no other choice since i was appointed with that task. never mind that. i felt precious during this month because the teachers were asking me to sit down. haha. there was also this single male teacher, whom i had always joked around because i liked his funny characters, he shouted in front of parents calling out for my names and asked me to sit down. he said, what if you wanted to deliver the baby and the road is al...

I am now 35 weeks day 7 pregnant. Tomorrow I'll be 36 weeks pregnant. That just means my baby will be in full term. I am excited. Yesterday one of my classmates had a baby. And everyone was congratulating him and his wife. They did ask about me too.  Now that I am just waiting for the baby to arrive and it is pretty much exciting. My husband can't wait for the baby to arrive. He is the most excited about the baby. Me? I am excited too but I find it scary just the thought of delivering the baby. I don't know the exact weight of my baby and last time about a month ago he weighed exactly 2 kilograms. My husband's cousin said he could grow one kilogram more. I am scared if the baby gets too big but I pray for his well health. As long as he is healthy then it will be fine for me. Hey,today is a holiday due to Wesak celebration though only Indians celebrate it but it's a bonus to all Malaysians since it is a holiday. I didn't go back to meet my husband. I am...

Currently it's nearly 6 a.m. and I am wide awake. Well, my eyes do feel heavy but I have this urge to type things down since I am too lazy to open up my book and write something. I can't believe I am now in 34 weeks. That just means my life will be changing for another couple of weeks. I am excited and scared at the same time.  There is not much going on in my life except for continuing living my life as it is. The only excitement that I get day by day is just waiting for this baby, and meeting my husband every weekend. My week, I really look forward to Friday when I can drive myself to my husband. Despite what people have to say about me going traveling all by myself when my due is just few weeks away, I totally enjoy every ride I have. The only moment where I can sit and be by myself, talk to no one and do my thinking this and that. To be honest, I didn't expect my life would turn out this way. Really. Well I do always imagine myself being a housewife, married to s...

I feel bad for leaving work early. Leaving the kids at the hands of others. Not that I care so much about them but just the idea of someone has to replace me is quite disturbing.  I thought I was gonna be okay, then at 1p.m. I started feeling out of breath, tired, and my legs were shaking. It was so bad so I had to ask the administrator to let me off early and luckily he was kind enough to let me off.  maybe I wasn't feeling well because I didn't have my lunch just yet. I don't know but I was super tired to care about the kids I just gave them the worksheets and they just did the worksheets though not quietly but still, they did their work.  I completed my work for a little bit then went to see the administrator and headed off to my car. Ok. Now my back hurts. I gotta go and lay down for a bit. 

I honestly thought that the pain will be over for a few days. Man was i wrong about it.  This pain is seriously unbearable. Ni hari keenam sakit pinggang yg amat. Memang susah nak describe sakit tu macam mana. I know. Been whining a lot about this. Tapi dah sakit. Rasa nak mintak painkiller ja and makan. Today ada sukan sebenarnya. Semalam dah masuk tido awal. Around 10. Tapi pagi tadi tido banyak kot so takleh tido plus tengah sakit kan, around 12 gak baru boleh nak lelap kot. Then terjaga, tengok jam, cis, baru pukul 2. Still sakit. So jenuh pusing kiri kanan so that boleh lelap balik.  It was so painful. Tah cemana boleh telelap. Then tersedar balik. Cek fon, baru pukul 4 lebih. Ya Allah. Geramnya rasa. Kenapa takleh tido. Cuba lagik utk tido. Pusing kiri kanan. Letak bantal bawah pinggang tak kena, baring tak kena, mengiring ke kanan tak kena, mengiring ke kiri tak kena. Sudahnya ni lah ceritanya. Tak dapat tido. Cubaan utk tido sambil duduk pun tak jalan jugak....