Lovely Goddess; Cause Life is Damn Beautiful

It's been a long time. Today I kinda wake up early, not so much early because I was overly attached with the bed and the pillows. Yesterday, I don't know what had happened, whether it was the food, or not eating that caused my belly to feel very painful. I thought I wanted to go back early from work but I just didn't have the heart to cause trouble to anyone so I just bore with it until I reached home and asked my room mate to drive me to the clinic. It was very painful and I was so much in pain especially when the baby is moving, which was a lot yesterday. Turns out it is quite normal for any women to feel the pain. and the consultation fee was free! awesome. this morning the baby is not much active that i have to poke him around to feel the movement. people say, sometimes the baby is lazy. haha. i dont know lah about that.. i need to take a shower before i go to school, so later. 

I am at the clinic right now.. so many people are here. Looking at pregnant women with their husbands accompanying them I feel a little bit jealous. But I know I have to be strong. For this little aby. If not I wouldn't come at all. For this check up, I will be injected. Quite scary ey? Seriously memang takut. You know how our society macam caring sangat-sangat. Kadang-kadang sampai rimas. Before I got married, memang dok fikir taknak anak sampai lah dapat duduk sekali. But then orang sekeliling asyik pesan and say negative things when it comes to pregnancy. "Jangan plan, nanti tak dapat langsung." I got this before I got married. Can you imagine how I felt then? Memang fikir banyak lah before kahwin tu but then lepas kahwin and bincang dgn husband, he said ada rezeki ada lah. Like that. Like totally berserah kt Allah. Yes. Memang kita taktaw whats gonna happen so memang biar jelah. Takde planning. As a woman, kita taktau how far kita punya kesuburan. Ad or...

Just a picture of my husband and the crew for the swimming competition. Funny. I smiled like an idiot looking at my husband. Why in the world does he have to look so good and handsome in the picture. I cant stop staring. Call me crazy hundred times I just dont care. I still adore him so so so much.. he is getting so much handsome these days. I am crazily in love with him. 

Hey it's me again. Wanting to whine I guess.  Pain is everywhere. My tummy is not even big but I feel pain everywhere. Especially if I walk around too much.  How to avoid this? Hm.

Since tomorrow is Valentine, though I'm not celebrating, I want to upload loads of pictures of us here. Yep. He loves taking this type of picture.  I'm the luckiest girl in the world.  Dulu pakwe makwe, now husband and wife alhamdulillah. 

Today I came in late for my course.. it was a long ride with the traffic at rawang and I was pretty much in stress. I really was. You know when you have everything in plan and when life just doesn't stick to that plan, it just frustrates me so much. This is a rare occasion though because I believe I am a very flexible person. Haha. Big laugh to my face.  It was very tiring for me, and at school I felt like crying because I just wanted to go home and rest. My body was not feeling it hence I was not in the mood of being grateful.  Then I contacted a friend of mine, and she told me about her good news and I am glad for her, truly am. But deep down inside I was feeling jealous of her. Why? Because she gets to live with her husband and I can't. We are different. I really shouldn't feel sorry for myself but since I was pretty damn tired the feeling overrode me.  Then I talked to a friend of mine and I just felt relieved I talked to her. She gave me good advices an...

I try not to complaint but this is just bothering me. The pain. Yes. Siapa nak sangka even before bersalin macam-macam sakit ada. Bersalin apatah lagi kan. Ni penyakit sebelum bersalin. At least what I've been through lah. Tak boleh nak buat kerja rumah lebih-lebih. I dont know to what extend yg dikira lebih-lebih, tapi memang boleh rasa la sakit yg datang tu bila buat kerja rumah. Is this mengada? I have no idea. Bukan lah nak mintak excuse or anything, and no I aint complaining. Just nak record rasa and perasaan now. Bangun tadi, takde buat benda teruk pun. Just mandi and terus keluar makan. Then pegi jalan-jalan. Even waktu jalan-jalan tu pun dah rasa sakit tapi kat sekolah okay jer. Hm. Mungkin yg ni lagi banyak kot pergerakan than turun naik tangga kt kelas tu. Now, nak berjalan pun sakit. Tak tipu. Celah kangkang, inner thighs ni, ya Allah sakit yg amat. Even berbaring pon can be painful. Hm. Dugaan ibu mengandung eh? Tu jelah kot nak cakap. Malam ni sakit-saki...