Lovely Goddess; Cause Life is Damn Beautiful

I am just too lazy to make the sugar caramel for this kuih. This is my first time and as usual, i dont follow the exact recipe. Main bedal je tapi okay la. My baby likes it. Semalam cuba buat yg ada gula tu. and i used my brown sugar, it caramelised so hard that it sticked to the plate and I couldn’t take it off. It had harden. And i cant be bothered to clean off scrape everything so i threw away the plate as well. Lol. 

To be honest, there is not one day passed by that i dont feel tired. When i am home, there is always something to do. It’s good. The endless chores. I guess it’s good because then i get to sleep soundly at night because i will be tired by 10 already.  Sometimes i wanna cry. Because even though i am married and i already have a kid that keeps me busy, at times i do feel lonely. I really need a friend who is willing to listen to all my stories. I know. That’s what husband do. But then trust me, it’s different when you rant to a guy and you rant to a girl. It’s just different. I guess that’s why i get super upset when ones I thought who are my friends didnt respond to all my little stories about my life. I really really do feel upset actually.  This is just another heart breaking story of mine. 

My baby is being difficult today. Sebab? Sebab dia taknak tidur and bila dia tidur and terbangun, dia still mengantuk menyebabkan dia mengamuk and nothing can help to soothe him. Stress jugak lah memandangkan badan aku sakit. Nak jalan pun sakit  It’s 11.09 p.m. and he is now asleep. After refusing to be taken by me. Akhirnya dah tidur. And now it is my turn. Pinggang and my pelvic still really really hurt. Can walk but slowly and with the right way in order to reduce the pain. Bukannya totally hilang terus sakit tu. tapi bersyukurlah. Demi baby dan semua. Hehe. Alhamdulillah.  Jom tido. 

Kisah hari ini. 20.11.18 Cuti maulidur rasul jatuh pada hari ni, hari Selasa. Suami ajak la pergi ipoh sebab dia nak tukar barang kereta. So we went. On the way it was a very short business nak tukar barang kereta tu. tak sampai 15 minit dah selesai. Alhamdulillah.  Then we went to aeon kelebang sebab memang yang tu paling dekat. Ever since adam dah start jalan i no longer carry beg baby besar gedabak. Jadi lepas parking aku pun just insert lah adam punya pampers dua keping since last time dua kali dia berak kt aeon ni jugak kan and that time aku bawak satu je pampers. Haha. Padan muka lah jugak. So this time konon habis prepared lah bawak dua pampers letak dalam beg.  We had lunch. Makan apa semua. Adam tak makan sangat pun. But he drank plenty of water. Lepas makan kami jalan-jalan and last spot masuk kaison. Sebab dah dekat pukul 4 and suami ada urusan lain.  Masuk kaison beli barang this and that. Time untuk bayar. Suami tengah dukung adam waktu tu. ...

Morning. It’s dawn. I haven’t been writing much. I know. Today after watching a video from my favourite blogger I just feel like writing. I am now 3 months pregnant. Alhamdulillah. To be honest with this pregnancy I feel like everything is moving so slow. I want to fast forward the time if I could. Compared to previous pregnancy my life now is going as slow as it can be probably because I don’t have any anticipations like previously my husband and I lived apart so I was very looking forward for the weekend. It was full of activities and anticipations. This time, now that we have been living together weekend just means more time spent in bed. Because I was constantly sleepy. Even on weekdays. Especially during the early weeks of pregnancy. I was crazy exhausted due to adjustment in my body and my body is trying to care for the little baby inside of me. It was exhausting thus I was constantly in bed. This time is a little bit challenging because my son is still breastfeeding and he ...

Kronologi: Aku submit segala borang untuk pengesahan jawatan. Kemudian aku tanya the pic tentang pergerakan gaji aku. Dia jawab, selagi urusan pengesahan jawatan tak selesai, selagi tu la tak boleh nak uruskan pergerakan gaji. Aku bagitahu la dia. Kawan aku pun tak sah jawatan lagi tapi dia lulus je pergerakan gaji? After that dia jawab, ikut negeri. Me being stupid aku pun balas, oh, okay. And i left.  Aku still macam pelik la. Kenapa pulak macam tu kan? So i made a call. I made a call to the ppd. Niat aku, aku nak tanya lah. Betul ke macam tu. Aku takde la pulak cakap apa-apa. Aku just nak maklumat pengesahan je. Betul ke kalau belum sah jawatan gaji tak naik? Kalau betul macam tu kenapa dua tahun lepas, aku masih belum sah jawatan, gaji naik macam biasa? Ada tempoh ke? She said, dia tak tahu. Kerja diorang di ppd just key in maklumat je. And she asked me to ask the pic. Before she hung up dia tanya la sekolah mana? Nanti dia akan call dan berurusan dengan pic tersebut....

This morning I saw the news that went viral. The babysitter claimed that the baby was taken by stranger who got into the house. So the parent viraled the picture seeking society’s help in finding their baby. Somehow the police said the statement made by the babysitter was very vague. So they searched the house. The baby was found dead and be kept in a fridge.  Can you believe how cruel is this? As a mother every morning when I go to work it just kills me that I need to send my baby to be taken care of by someone I do not know of. It just breaks my heart seeing him cry when I go to work and this happens not every morning but when he does, I am worried sick at work.  Kalau ikutkan memang. Semua ibu kat dunia ni nak jaga anak sendiri. Takde ibu yg nak for something bad to happen. Walaupun ada. Tapi kebanyakkannya memang nak anak tu membesar depan mata. Meskipun kadang-kadang semua ibu ni ada love hate relationship dengan anak masing-masing. Haha. I am speaking about me ...