Lovely Goddess; Cause Life is Damn Beautiful

Today I had a heart to heart confession of life story with my housemate. I did not realize all of these before. She told me that she used to live in a struggling life. I never listened or knew any of the stories only based on what I'd seen on tv. But that story had made me realize something. I should appreciate what I have.  For me, I had never experienced such a struggling life before. Well, I am not from a wealthy family either. Just the average ones. Ever since I was borne, my father already owned a car. Even though it was not that expensive car but at least that car could move from place to place. Well, that's the point of it for having a car right? He bought a car for himself and also he bought a car for his father even when he was still in college. Amazing right? Children nowadays whenever they enter a college they will demand a car from their parent. I am part of them too. Too bad though.  Anyway, what I am saying here is, the reality, people who are havin...

Determination. I don't have it when it comes to things I don't like. Who would? When you are forced to do something out of your willingness, of course you won't be fully determined. You do it just because you want it to be finished. Or, is it just me?  Haha. My lecturer that came to observe me said to me that if you say you want to do, you will do no matter what. Let's put it this way lah sir, I didn't want to do it at the first place anyway. That's why, whatever motivational words you were giving to me it ain't gonna work on me. Because I was forced! I hate to do something that I am forced to do.  So, this practicum was not that meaningful to me as it only brought hurtful memories that I totally wished I could erased. Well, what's done cannot be undone so just face it. There's no use in regretting it now, right?  It's so over now and I don't have to see or meet those people except for the lecturer of course. Till next t...

this little cikgu practicum will soon end her days at school. she's so happy. not that she will not be missing all those monsters in her school but it's just that she will be happy to be able to relax her mind and body after such a month of sufferings.  so, this little teacher went out today to a mall and bought her pupils something for them. because they have been asking about it for a little while already.  seriously, this little teacher did not mean to show off her ability to buy things for her pupils. it's just that little teacher wanted to say that, she'd be willing to sacrifice for her pupils. so please appreciate it guys.  till next time. little teacher will be back. 

today, i don't have to teach. so easy peezy life for me eyh? nope? you think i went to school just loitering around, see things here and there huh?  i always have works to do but when i actually do it, it will take me only 30 minutes to actually completed the lesson plan i have to do but i don't really know where all the time goes. maybe through the searching and research. XD luckily, i got things done at school and when i got home i just needed to copy things and print things and go to photocopy.  that's basically a life of a practicum teacher. prepare a lesson plan, do mountains of preparing for the worksheets and teaching aids that will take you for a night! i am serious here.  if you want to photocopy things here around Ulu Kinta, i advise you, do not go to yumazani because the cost damn expensive. i prefer go to cik fatt shop and photocopy all the worksheets there because it is super cheap. weehoo.. so tonight after maghrib, i'll be heading the...

can't believe i have time to write this. but i think i just want to share with you guys.  yall know that i am in practicum month. but what yall don't know is that, i teach year 4 pupils. average class. very naughty. some are brilliant.  these pupils are so smart until they complain things to me.  1) teacher, why must we do group work???  2) teacher, why do you give us so many papers????  speechless about these pupils. then i shall not do group work and not give you papers (task sheets) then? what are you gonna learn honey pie????  you think i like to photocopy all the sheets is it?? teacher also doesn't like to do that but i have to my dear.. ishhhh.. 

Well i think this is cute. don't you think?

this one i read it on facebook. so i thought hey, why not share it here? plus it sorts of suits what i am going through right now, so here goes.  Carrots, Eggs or Coffee? Which One Are YOU  Grandmother says... Carrots, Eggs, or Coffee; "Which are you?" A young woman went to her grandmother and told her about her life and how things were so hard for her. She did not know how she was going to make it and wanted to give up. She was tired of fighting and struggling. It seemed as one problem was solved a new one arose. Her grandmother took her to the kitchen. She filled three pots with water. In the first, she placed carrots, in the second she placed eggs and the last she placed ground coffee beans. She let them sit and boil without saying a word. In about twenty minutes she turned off the burners. She fished the carrots out and placed them in a bowl. She pulled the eggs out and placed them in a bowl. Then she ladled the coffee out and placed it in a bow...

Wishing you a very blessed and happy morning to all of you.  usually if it is a holiday, i won't wake up this early. after prayer i will usually go back to bed but since today i am going back to Ipoh, i feel like it is a waste of time sleeping. i can enjoy morning with my family. my mom has waken up already. oh i wish i can eat her nasi goreng. that would be a lovely morning.  i wish holiday never ends. i wish i can be with my family forever. i wanna spend more time with them instead of with friends. i wonder what it will be like after i get married? will i be able to spend my time with them more? i really hope so.. dear hubby, i want to go back to my hometown often so let's find a settlement near here okay? hehehe good news. my mom is going to make me her delicious fried rice. i am so happy.. so sad that i have to go back to ipoh already. i hate it there. so much. the work loads and the stress, i can't even think about it and i don't want to think about ...

Yes. i am no longer a celcom user. i've been using that number for quite some time. well, let me guess, almost six years! whew... lots of friends knew that number but too bad i have to throw away the sim card.  WHY??? because.... (long pause for dramatic effect)  because that number reminds me of my past that hurt me so bad. i just don't want to remember that memory anymore so move on babe! that's why i am having new number and different from others so that it will be expensive just to text me or chit chat with me.  so yeah. basically that's my reason. no sorry for anyone because it's my decision and it's my number.  feel bad too because i can no longer text with ima like sms-er crazy maniac. i can only sms certain people or can still contact with them through fb or twitter or whatsapp..  so enough with bad memories, let's keep the good memories fresh will ya....  oh ya. btw, i am so moving on. :) 

People are not interested in blogging anymore.how sad!

Hey! new cute wallpaper for my blog. ha! is this an effort to make sure i post a lot? naah... it will still depend on my M.O.O.D.  i am currently at home sweet home. it's really sweet. lately i've been wanting to go back home so bad. i might be making this as my habit every weekend. even though it will cost me quite a lot. but to be able to see faces of my precious ones, i think it will all be worth it.  so instead of calling my mom everyday, i showed my face to my mom every week. haha. how awesome is that? but i still do will call my mom everyday if i have free time which lately i can't even pick up dad's call. so sad. i was so tired. i looked at the phone and just stare at it without even thinking of picking it up. heh~ what a life ey.  imagine i have this life onward. then i started thinking, should i change my career to something else? i even discussed it with my practicum partner. haha.. i was really depressed during that time. i wanted to cry every...

I am currently a practicum teaacher.

for the past two weeks, i have been very very busy and stressful. there are too many problems that i have to handle at the same time and obviously, i don't like it as well. it is the first time in my life i feel like i am out of a place. i am in a stranded island where everyone else around me has three eyes and moves so fast from me. they are very different from me. i finally understand the feeling of wanting to go back home as soon as possible just like my friend, ima. ima, i finally understand the feelings!  so, last week, i went back home and sort all my feelings. i tried to put away all the negative thoughts that had been haunting me. i tried. well, i really tried. but that feelings kept crawling back to me. and again, i felt like i wanted and needed to back home. the shocking news that i heard last week kept bugging me and i questioned myself over and over again, how could that person do that? there's no explanation for it and to me, if that person asked me to treat h...

this month is a hellish month for me because i am in my practicum. too late to realize that this profession is not as easy as i thought it would be. i know it is hard, theoretically. but being the one who is applying all theories learnt, and at the same time thinking about teaching the pupils. seriously. it's not easy.  everyday routine would be, planning a lesson, which is very troublesome because we have to consider lots of things. resources, students' ability. gosh. i wish this practicum ends early. it has really taken my sleeping time and fooling around time. but today, i am not going to take another step complaining about practicum or explaining to you about how hard it would be, today i am going to tell you a funny story. a real one. happened this morning. everyday. us. practicum teacher or any other teacher in the school will have to relief class. so, i got mine and hanim too. hanim's class was at 9 a.m. whereas mine, the schedule clashed with my class....