Lovely Goddess; Cause Life is Damn Beautiful

i am cold, towards you. there's a reason, but you don't care. maybe you are not hurt, as much as i do.

she sleeps with a picture in her hand, staring at the picture as the eyes welling up with tears, she tries to say i'm sorry, but the person can no longer respond, she closes her eyes, letting the tears fall, feeling the heat in the tears when everything else feels cold, she puts the picture on her chest, hoping it will ease the pain in her heart, and she is trying to sleep. but the pain is still there.

since i've been learning English for almost or maybe more than a decade now, i realized a lot of things. but one thing i think that it's very prominent to me nowadays is, how fascinating it is for the accent of the non-native speakers who speak English. not sure if you know what i mean but.. i always enjoyed myself in movies that have non-native english speakers. i love listening to their accent when they speak English. it's amazing and it sounds very beautiful.  i love how Jet Lee speaks English. i love how Jackie Chan speaks English. i love how Melanie Laurent speaks English.  there are many more.  i am just saying, if you can speak in English accent, than it's good for you.  but here's a thing, you're gonna speak just like the rest of the native speakers. if you're learning English, it does not matter what accent you follows. just be comfortable, and you'll be you. and that's amazing. 

you think all teachers have free time during the school holidays? well, most teachers do. but not my daddy..  he's a hardworking teacher i've ever known.  he's been working hard all his life and i just can't wait to see him sit down for a week and literally do nothing and just rest. get some rest daddy..  now, he's at Seremban, cuz he's the manager for the state's KKJR group. even though his school did not send any representative but he still has to go. and now i am replacing my father's morning duty on holiday which go to the market. which i only done it only today. then i was exhausted. lol my daddy will be back on Tuesday's night and on t Thursday he needs to go to KL to prepare questions for MGB module if i'm not mistaken. yerp. i am not sure how long will he go there. but sure he is a hardworking daddy even though this is supposed to be a holiday for all teachers. but nope, there are few teachers out there, still workin...

i am supposed to be studying right now but hey, it's raining, why not stop learning?  yerp.  raining can stop learning. how's that for a pun? -..-''  seriously i cannot stop myself from watching itsjudyslife vlogz. makes me wanting to start a new family on my own..  nahhh, i am not prepared for that. haha..  just saying. gotta go now. need to download the documents to be read.

last night i did not plan to go out cuz i was already tired. but then he called and asked me to accompany him to dinner cuz most of his housemates are out. so he asked me out.  as i got in the car, he told me that his parents were waiting for him. and i was like... whaaaatt???!!! why didn't you tell me????!!!! i was super shocked. i met his parents before, quite a number of times already but i was not prepared for this..  but i ended up going anyway and i met his family. he took me to dinner with his family. i already ate two hours ago and i was still full and i also had my benjo back in the car but still, he ordered food for me!!! i was definitely going to kill him so i did kick him under the table. he deserved it.  i gave him half of my rice, served him right lah kan, so i forced myself to eat. T_T i needed to finish my food, nanti apa pulak mak dia cakap kan?  and i was the last person to finish my food. geram sangat dah kat mamat ni. mem...

the other day i had a really bad craving for pisang goreng cheese. you have no idea how good it is..  the one from the stall that i bought was super delicious and it kept you full too.  so, i asked him to buy but since he just woken up and it was already late, he refused. haha.. that's normal. it's okay. so, i was doing all crazy stuff cuz i was bored and i didn't want to study.  then, i ranted it on my house's group in whatsapp. i ranted that i wanted goreng pisang cheese and my housemate bought it!!!!! makes me love my housemate even more. this evening, one of my housemates went out. when she got home, she said she bought something for me. i was already betting on food.  to my surprise she bought me pisang goreng cheese that i've wanted all along... i am super grateful to her and awakk. terima kasih banyak-banyak sebab teringat kat saya and belikan saya pisang goreng cheese. she said she remembered me and then she bought it. awwwwwwww...