Lovely Goddess; Cause Life is Damn Beautiful

i am cold, towards you. there's a reason, but you don't care. maybe you are not hurt, as much as i do.

she sleeps with a picture in her hand, staring at the picture as the eyes welling up with tears, she tries to say i'm sorry, but the person can no longer respond, she closes her eyes, letting the tears fall, feeling the heat in the tears when everything else feels cold, she puts the picture on her chest, hoping it will ease the pain in her heart, and she is trying to sleep. but the pain is still there.

since i've been learning English for almost or maybe more than a decade now, i realized a lot of things. but one thing i think that it's very prominent to me nowadays is, how fascinating it is for the accent of the non-native speakers who speak English. not sure if you know what i mean but.. i always enjoyed myself in movies that have non-native english speakers. i love listening to their accent when they speak English. it's amazing and it sounds very beautiful.  i love how Jet Lee speaks English. i love how Jackie Chan speaks English. i love how Melanie Laurent speaks English.  there are many more.  i am just saying, if you can speak in English accent, than it's good for you.  but here's a thing, you're gonna speak just like the rest of the native speakers. if you're learning English, it does not matter what accent you follows. just be comfortable, and you'll be you. and that's amazing. 

you think all teachers have free time during the school holidays? well, most teachers do. but not my daddy..  he's a hardworking teacher i've ever known.  he's been working hard all his life and i just can't wait to see him sit down for a week and literally do nothing and just rest. get some rest daddy..  now, he's at Seremban, cuz he's the manager for the state's KKJR group. even though his school did not send any representative but he still has to go. and now i am replacing my father's morning duty on holiday which go to the market. which i only done it only today. then i was exhausted. lol my daddy will be back on Tuesday's night and on t Thursday he needs to go to KL to prepare questions for MGB module if i'm not mistaken. yerp. i am not sure how long will he go there. but sure he is a hardworking daddy even though this is supposed to be a holiday for all teachers. but nope, there are few teachers out there, still workin...

i am supposed to be studying right now but hey, it's raining, why not stop learning?  yerp.  raining can stop learning. how's that for a pun? -..-''  seriously i cannot stop myself from watching itsjudyslife vlogz. makes me wanting to start a new family on my own..  nahhh, i am not prepared for that. haha..  just saying. gotta go now. need to download the documents to be read.

last night i did not plan to go out cuz i was already tired. but then he called and asked me to accompany him to dinner cuz most of his housemates are out. so he asked me out.  as i got in the car, he told me that his parents were waiting for him. and i was like... whaaaatt???!!! why didn't you tell me????!!!! i was super shocked. i met his parents before, quite a number of times already but i was not prepared for this..  but i ended up going anyway and i met his family. he took me to dinner with his family. i already ate two hours ago and i was still full and i also had my benjo back in the car but still, he ordered food for me!!! i was definitely going to kill him so i did kick him under the table. he deserved it.  i gave him half of my rice, served him right lah kan, so i forced myself to eat. T_T i needed to finish my food, nanti apa pulak mak dia cakap kan?  and i was the last person to finish my food. geram sangat dah kat mamat ni. mem...

the other day i had a really bad craving for pisang goreng cheese. you have no idea how good it is..  the one from the stall that i bought was super delicious and it kept you full too.  so, i asked him to buy but since he just woken up and it was already late, he refused. haha.. that's normal. it's okay. so, i was doing all crazy stuff cuz i was bored and i didn't want to study.  then, i ranted it on my house's group in whatsapp. i ranted that i wanted goreng pisang cheese and my housemate bought it!!!!! makes me love my housemate even more. this evening, one of my housemates went out. when she got home, she said she bought something for me. i was already betting on food.  to my surprise she bought me pisang goreng cheese that i've wanted all along... i am super grateful to her and awakk. terima kasih banyak-banyak sebab teringat kat saya and belikan saya pisang goreng cheese. she said she remembered me and then she bought it. awwwwwwww...

i always hated to pack things up and organize things. i don't put my things back at their respective place especially when i am in hurry and i am just messy like that.  so, this evening like i told ya i was cleaning and packing things up, i did not know that i would be super tiring.  now i am catching my breath. even though i took nearly two hours to complete all the tasks, and it does not even look as organized as i thought it would be, but i managed to do it anyway and anyhow i can.  i called him and i am way too lazy to put away my rack and my closet, so i am giving the stuff to him. for free yeah. so, that's a relief, i don't have to pack up more. so i called him to ask whether he wants it or not but he did not give me the answer yet. so later. since he's busy.  i know i did short entry but frequent update but whatever, i'll post whatever i want, whenever i want. bye.

what am i really good at? procrastinating. even right now i am procrastinating. surely i have tons of reasons to not doing my work but that's procrastinating right? anyway, since my brother or my daddy (either one) is coming tomorrow to pick up some of my stuff here, i needed to pack my stuff. and what i did was just packing my clothes. yerp. my clothes only. and here's what got me. writing a new entry for my blog. thought of changing my blog URL but maybe later. now's not the time. here's the big bag that i used to put all of my clothes. it's hugeeeee! i thought i could fill in books and whatnot but when i packed my stuff, my clothes were already filling three quarter of the bag. where was i supposed to put on my books and files? my bag. it's cute though and expensive too. bought this at RM12.90! can you believe it?? it's like twice the price of me eating. nearly full baby! lol. can see my feet there. this is how big my ba...

i woke up this morning, feeling very energetic so i went to take bath and i washed all my clothes. there were a lot of them which was really tiring. took me an hour to complete both tasks.  since i woke up and not look at the outside world, i just went straight ahead to the toilet. which there is a consequence to this.  as i spent almost one hour struggling to wash my clothes using my hand (our washing machine broke down and the stupid workers did not want to pick them up even though they had promised us to take it back and repair it), i did not realize or i was not aware of the weather outside.  so when i had finished everything and got out of the shower, i realized two things:  1) it's so gloomy, there's no light inside of the house 2) everyone else was still sleeping!! then i went to had a sneak peek of the outside and i looked above at the cloud, BAMMMMM it was about to rain.. and i had washed my clothes. where am i supposed to hang my c...

i am so nice today cuz i had a very good sleep, so i want to share this with you guys. now, IT DOES NOT MATTER WHO SAID IT OKAY?? what matters is the truth behind the words in every sentence. i think it is applicable to all religion. :)  

this is what happened last night, or evening, or both.  while i was reading for exam purpose, in the living room with my room mate, most of us got bored and stated to share photos of delicious food.  then, my housemate was going out with her boyfriend cause her boyfriend was craving for western food. funny, a guy with craving.  when she started to talk about western food i was about to go crazy cuz it's freaking evening and it's raining pretty hard, and so i was really hungry even though i got fish bone stuck in my throat.  so i called him, and asked him out cuz for quite a few days i've been wanting to eat fish and chips. i know that there's nothing special but the one Ika was having the other night at Mat Periuk restaurant was so good. so i asked him to take me to a dinner for western food. since it was just an evening, i continued reading few more pages before i started to get really bored.  then the night came. please remember that the ...

how fast time flies? very fast. still remember the time when i was contemplating whether to complete my AR report or just watch other awesome movies and not doing it. but now, i have already finished my second paper! road to final year is really tough. one more paper left. i kind of can't wait to finish all these. but at the same time i have mixed feelings about leaving this place. there was one time when i can't wait to finish my degree and get away from the people who love to talk behind my back and not seeing them. i just couldn't wait to say goodbye to some people. but now the time have come, i realized one thing, being able to say goodbye does not mean it's for certain people. to say goodbye is for all the people that i have known especially the ones that i love. my housemates, my dearest friends and him. soon, all of these are gonna be memories and i will cherish each and every moment that had happened in my life. i'll know that t...

is it possible to look beautiful even if you're not borne with superficial features?  as a woman or a girl, it's normal for us to feel like we're beautiful. no doubt about it. women are like that. they like cute and pretty stuff. i mean, most women are like that.   sometimes we look into the mirror and we kinda don't like what we see. SOMETIMES.  we want to look beautiful. so we try on so many ways to be one. for example, buy pretty clothes, put on make up, to a certain amount, some go for plastic surgeries.  so, to my question just now, is it possible? yes. it is possible for all women to look beautiful. but, it requires a lot of commitment and hard work.  why i said so? let's consider this: we were told to clean our face once in the morning and once at night.  1) i know a lot of us do clean our face in the morning but how many are really committed to clean their face at night? trust me, i am guilty of this too.  that...

actually, i wanted to update. but i was just too lazy. had an exam yesterday, didn't study like mad thus could not really answer the questions. never mind. this post is going to be filled with hell lots of photos. yesterday, after the exam, i was already hungry. of course. who wouldn't? but that's not the point. my point is, i had a great lunch with all of my housemates yesterday. it was a really fun outing to have with my housemates since we're all going to be apart soon. :( so we headed up to JJ and we went to Seoul Garden! man. it was awesome and we ate like crazy. here's a thing about buffet, i don't really like all you can eat buffet. because i honestly didn't eat much. although i may look as if i had consumed all of the foods in this world, but i don't. really. here are the pictures. p/s:lots and lots of my pictures. haha.. please don't mind kasut and slipar yg bersepah tu. banyak sangat tak larat susun.  ro...