Lovely Goddess; Cause Life is Damn Beautiful

well the thing that i posted previously was an honest opinion of what i had think this happened. to be honest, i am still sad thinking about it. my cute friends all told me just to ignore and i'll be fine on my own. guess what, yesterday i made it. i went out shopping here alone. i carried all my bags full of groceries without help. even though now that i think about it, if i had asked the matahari worker to take my groceries to my car, they would be happy to help. who wouldn't wanna help a cute mom carrying her baby? haha. perasan! anyway, it is hard to change others right? so i have decided to change myself. even though being a bitch that i was before, dah was ke eh? haha. i wanna be better than i was yesterday. i wanna be kinder than i was yesterday. never mind what people did to me. my mom would always say, biarlah apa orang nak buat kat kita, nak cakap apa pasal kita asalkan kita tak buat macam depa. and i truly wanna take prophet muhammad as my idol and mentor in l

i have been a little bit upset lately. for the past few days. i thought it was just a small stuff but i dont know why i was pretty much affected by it.  here's the story. my room mate has this wonderful friendship with my housemate which is totally fine by me. meanwhile i, am not so good with this person. there are stuff that she did that bothered me and i know i bothered her too. in what way? i guess it's my loud voice. i am totally gifted to be a teacher cause i have such a loud voice. never mind that.  and then another housemates came in and they have wonderful friendship as well. suddenly i am an outsider. because i was in my confinement for 3 months so they have that plenty of time to know each other and clique.  i tried.  but then maybe there is something in me that they don't like. based on what they did. so it kinda offended me. it was such a small thing i dont know why i am being a baby about it.  but it gets pretty lonely lah when i spent the