Lovely Goddess; Cause Life is Damn Beautiful

Hey there. Whoever read my blog, if there is any. Probably me. So, hi me!  Felt like ages since my last update due to no internet connection at home because daddy said it would be a fuss to have one and most of his kids will probably be facing laptop day and night so, no internet, let's be happy about it.  Pondering over Facebook and there's a wedding I must attend tomorrow and BFF's engagement this Saturday. Whenever I heard the word marriage or engagement I got totally pissed off. So anti-marriage and anti-engagement. No, I am not anti with the sacred events, I'm just sick of waiting for my turn.  The other day, I got totally angry some more cried because I am not getting a ring next year. I was looking forward for this event you know next year! Now had to cancel it. Everything! Reason: He doesn't have a car and he must buy a car first.   Funny.. Really So I asked him, poor people cannot get married lah? They don't have car what...!  

I am a huge fan of diamond rings. How can you resist the bling bling? Most people are distracted with shiny objects but I am in huge favour in shiny objects.  Just now I was looking at someone's diamond ring. I didn't care about the video I was just staring at this beautiful diamond ring of hers. It came across my mind, can the diamond falls out of the ring?  I never have diamond ring before so pardon me if I ask this silly question. But yeah, can the diamond fall off? Imagine that. If my one and only diamond ring that worth like 15 grand, and the diamond falls off, I'd be crying three days three nights for that. Then I'd probably be telling myself how stupid I am for wearing it during whatever thing I did to make the diamond fell off. Moron, bloody idiot mostly would come out from my mouth.  And of course, it's the creepiest moment when you saw the diamond falling off and you couldn't catch it because you're so helpless and your hands are

Hey everyone and good morning to all.  First thing, let's us all thank our Mighty Creator for giving a chance for us to live our lives.  The topic I'm about to say today is death. I know, what a depressing topic to begin a new entry for the month right? But still, you cannot avoid the fact that death is around us. We just don't know when and how can it happen. To think about it, it's very scary unless to die is one of your options in life to solve solutions, then, it can't be helped. Please seek a doctor for that. I mean it.  Ever since I was small, death is something that I am not familiar with. I heard my friends told me that their grandfather had passed away. I even experienced my best friend at the age of 11 experienced the death of her father. To be honest, I did not know how I should feel at that time. No one to blame though.  But being a grown up, the death issue has become one of the things that you will somehow must get through with. It

Hey there. It's been such a long time since I wrote this. But anyway, here's what I wanted to write because I am too lazy to write a diary and also I am afraid that I will lose it halfway so I'm just gonna spill it right here. Yesterday, him and I were fighting. Yeah, yeah, we fought over silly matters too. We're definitely not a couple who never fights. So, we the fight was quite bad and along the way, I did not talk at all. Even when he tried to console me and bought me dinner, I didn't eat and didn't even look at him. I had to turn sideways to avoid him and just looking at a football match and in my heart I couldn't help but cursing the goalkeeper of the losing team. Urgh.. Anyway, the point is, we fought yesterday. So, this morning I called him since he didn't even leave me a message. You must be thinking what an idiot I am right? But I really can't imagine my life without him in it. It's like, my world revolves around him. Bluerrk... Bu

Life is fun. Always think of it that way. If you don't, then you probably wouldn't want to live in this world anymore.  Today, is not so special day. So I woke up this morning and look at my phone. My housemate sent me a message through Facebook. She asked me to join her and watch soccer at our college. So, I said yes.  I woke up and took a bath and got ready.  Then we headed out and looked for breakfast first. Because it's morning, and we're hungry.  After that, we went to our college.  I am not really a fan of football, but after meeting him, I kinda watched football too. And, it was not as boring as I thought it would be. It was fun!  My advice, go out and see the world. Don't just limit yourself in your room with your computer. Go out and live a life. Seek out many new things. :)  Here are few pictures taken during the event.  That's all for my update. I am busy afterwards. Got so many things to do. Buh-

Yesterday was a holiday. So, the night before, when I was almost falling asleep, he called me. He said, his friend and also my friend asked me to join their date. Of course, it is a thing I would never turn down. So, I said yes. With a sleepy face, I quickly got up and got ready for the double date.  So, I drove from my house to our college to fetch him. Since he's tired, so I let myself drove there to fetch the other couple. After we fetched them, my boyfriend took his turn to drive.  As we asked them where was our destination, they said, Lumut.. Seemed like my boyfriend and I had no problem with that, so there we were, at almost 10 p.m. heading to Lumut. It was quite a distant journey. Took almost 2 hours of driving to reach there.  Like I said, I love going for a trip especially an unplanned one. That night, he drove but I was really really sleepy. Instead of having a chit chat with him, I fell asleep most of the time in the car. Luckily, his friend created a conve

well, well, well, ain't I been slacking off in keeping this blog updated?  I was not sure if I should say I was busy, but apparently, I spent most of my times doing absolutely nothing and just watching the time went by without regretting any minute of it.  Last week, I had been a little upset. Maybe due to the hormones that are always raging like mad, perhaps that's just me.  I felt very stuffy to be at home, because I really needed to have some place where I can just let my tears running down my face and screamed really loud. Unfortunately, I am not the only one who's living in the rented house. If I did what I had to do, my housemates probably would think that I needed help and needed to be sent to the nearest hospital which is the hospital for mental problems people.  Instead of thinking of going there, so I decided, what the heck? I've got car. Just fill in the gas and go on a road trip. I was thinking of doing it alone. BUT, this little piece of h

here's a rant about practicum and the misconception. lots of teacher trainees who are in my batch are still continuing their practicum session. hey, 3 weeks left. who's happy. ME! i know that it is very difficult to face this challenge. with the super load of works. and tons of assignments, i believe even sleeping will make you feel guilty which, happens once in a blue moon. here's what i think is right, and what i think is wrong. everyone wants the label A in their slip and also to increase their pointer. so, they work so hard for the practicum. some have succeeded, some might fail. some might even feel totally stress out due to the inability to satisfy the needs of the lecturers, the needs of the cooperative teacher, and the needs of the students. one self reflection to be made for myself and also, for you. when the lecturer is not coming to observe you, how did you teach the pupils? are you feeling eager to teach, or you just want to kill the time and do wha

The last time I remembered updating my blog is when I was at home.  I drove from Penang to Ipoh, as usual, but with different car. My dad asked me to bring another car and since they are his car, I couldn't help myself but to listen to him.  After driving for some time, trust me, I was very polite on the highway, I stopped at Bukit Gantang stop, and I started to feel dizzy. Maybe it's this car or maybe the fact is I was not ready to head back to Ipoh, just yet. To me, Ipoh is not as exciting as it used to be.  And so, as soon as I reached Ipoh, my head started to feel very heavy and I got a headache. Trust me, I dislike very much to be back in Ipoh. I had lunch with housemate then he wanted to come to Ipoh because I told him I was lonely. Nazirah wanted to go out with Ala because they wanted to watch movies. I wanted to join them but I was afraid if I were disturbing them. So, I asked him out. He came all the way from his home to Ipoh just to go out with me. ^^ Ho

happy eid mubarak to all Muslims in the world. this year's eid is not meaningful to me. it's very dull and there's no element of excitements in it. here goes how i spent my eid mubarak for the past few days. day 1 of eid mubarak - spend one whole morning at my grandmother's house. chit-chatting and eating.  - went to husnul's house. but it also turned out to be a visit to her uncle's house because she's not there at her   house when i arrived. so her uncle invited me in and it was pretty awkward. luckily, after i finished my meal,   husnul arrived. haha. thank God! - take husnul to my house for a while only because i don't see the fun part of it at my house cause it's hot! - went to husnul's fiancee house. his whole family was there. and surprisingly, one of his cousins was my schoolmate! i was surprised to see her and even more surprised she knew me. :)  - went back home alone because husnul's fiancee sent her back.  -

so far, i am loving my ankle boot. it's gorgeous and whenever i use them, i feel a little bit of confident and i am totally in it for that boot. so, today my family and i went out shopping for our hari raya. then i told me mom. here's our conversation. me: i don't want a new shoes. i already have one. i am going to buy new shoes next year..  mom: yeah la. your shoes are expensive. *my boot costs me rm100 and it's a big deal for a not so rich family like mine* mine only cost me rm10.  me: duhh, mom. you bought ten and more shoes for one year. that's just about the same amount as my boot.  really mom?  haha.. i think my mom is funny. i guess she's not going to scold me when i buy new heels or boots next year. i am definitely going to spend about rm100 for one year. so, isn't that cheap?? for a student like me.. i think it is. :) 

Hey there. currently i am at home so home sweet home. recently, my life had been super busy. i had to stay up most of the nights to do extra work. that's because i am not always productive in the evening, so night is THE time to do most of the works. so that's why, i had been very busy. yeah, yeah, busy doing extra things like, break fast with love ones and everything. spend more time with them and everything and thus, neglecting this blog.. poor baby.  oh yeah, yesterday, after school, i went to cameron highland with him. he drove lah.. i was too lazy to drive. it was an unplanned visit. since he's like, where are we going??? i really thought he would like to bring me to accompany him to buy his baju raya. but then he filled up the gas till up to rm40. so i was like, where are we going exactly?  then he asked me, lumut or cameron? i was not sure. but then i said cameron lah since it's near. lumut is so far away. so we checked my car and everything and hea

alright guys. so sorry for the lateness to update. i've been very busy ever since the day i started my practicum. i am just gonna go straight where i am heading. i read a news in facebook saying that a father reported to the police that his child was caned at school because her child did not finish her homework.  i must say that there are always two sides of the story. what we probably did not know that, the child perhaps has not been exposed to being punished for what she is supposed to do but did not do. that is one possibility, that is why she's cannot cope with being punished and feeling stressful about the incident.  another possibility is that, the child did not feel guilty at all for not finishing her homework. perhaps she thinks that she did not deserve any homework at all.  okay, that's the negative story of it. perhaps. it may be and may be not true.  let's take a look at the positive side of the story.  perhaps, that child was given

currently i am still in school. i am very stressed out now. why?  first, my lesson did not go well (this is normal anyway), the kids don't understand me, i expect too much from them, they are naughty, i really feel like i want to strangle those kids.  secondly, this week, there are just too much work. i have to prepare my lesson plan for tomorrow and also for next monday. you think it's easy is it? you can't copy paste it because it has to work based on your students, how good they are. but mine, is always not so good. i have to scream to the top of my lung and every time my class is finished, my throat felt very hurt. i can't even drink because this is a fasting month. of course lah, i felt jealous towards hanim, she doesn't even have to teach grammar which means, she has two periods off!she also doesn't need to do the pbs thing because the class teacher does not trust the practicum teacher to assess the students. damn i am super jealous. -..-'

i am a person who really can't stand bugs. did i tell you before. yeah, i think i have.  the only thing i will never touch is, the old trash with maggots.. yucks. hearing its name, or mentioning its name is making me wanting to vomit... puke puke puke... yes...  i hate that..  if i someone ever give that thing to me apparently as joke, then don't be surprised if i ended his or her life.  i am serious man... i totally hate that creature... so much.. i still remember, when i was in my previous rent house, that creature attacked us (our kitchen). i did not take the responsibility to clean it up because the one who was responsible for throwing the trash was not me. so, touching that creature was a hell no no to me.  seriously....  i stayed away far from the kitchen.. if that creature suddenly crawled up to my feet, even after washing my feet with soap, like twice, put lotion some more after that, i could still feel its dirtiness on my feet.. 

quite recently i bought a smartphone (android) for a cheap price. so, i was kinda excited to download all those apps. but,  i wanted to chat with him through we chat, line, whatsapp, etc. so i asked him to buy an android too.  but he refused....... OMG that's just because he's afraid. he's afraid that i will check everything on his phone and get caught later on.  even with his phone right now, i always asked for it and read all his messages.  it's not that i am a paranoid girlfriend who doesn't trust her boyfriend, i just wanted to know how is he when he's messaging with his friends and what are they talking about (so keypochi).. that's all..  that's just his reason but i am sure going to force him to buy one.  but then he questioned me back, when am i going to save money to marry you....  ^.^ what a demanding girlfriend he has.. 

For this month (Ramadhan), I think I want to post about this.  I actually heard this on the radio this morning while driving to college.  The topic was 'The random act of kindness.'  Have you experienced it before? Or perhaps do it before?  Perhaps I might, but I'm not really sure now. Usually when the one who does the kindness will not really remember it but the one who receives the kindness will never forget.  Well, isn't that is always the way?  Here goes my story of the random act of kindness. Experienced by me and till today I am still grateful for what she did for me.  The night before I had to go for my BIG program at Taiping, I washed my clothes. But since it's at night, I did not hang the clothes because I intended to do it in the morning.  But, I was running late on that morning and I left the house without hanging my clothes to dry.  I just left without thinking about the clothes. Having a great moment there and every

blurry eyes full of tears I'm not sure of what I really want anymore.. It hurts. 

I got bored so I looked up for few things. For instance, I looked up for these... I bet girls's eyes are widening right now. Picture 1  Picture 2 Picture 3 Picture 4 Picture 5 Which one would you prefer?  Well, I kinda like all of them, but if I were to choose ONLY ONE, I would go for ring no 4.  I seriously don't care how much it's going to cost me, or how late my wedding's gonna be. I MUST have this ring for my wedding ring. yerp. That's right baby. Then only I can be proud that I AM MARRIED!  I am super greedy right now.  My money what? or My husband's. Not yours. So stop caring.. 

I guess being a human, you can't really escape from the realm of 'falling in love' or the least, 'liking someone'.  When that time comes, then we start to listen to romantic songs or love songs that we have never even think about to listen to them.  While listening to the love songs, we imagine ourselves dedicating that song to our love or crush.. Okay. I said this based from my experience. LOL But, to me the most romantic song ever is from Daniel Beddingfield entitles If you're not the one.  It's so romantic that I really wish that my future husband will sing this song to me. But mind you, not everybody has the talent to sing. Anyway, the lyrics is so beautiful that I never really get bored listening to it for thousand times!  You should listen to it too. :) Later peeps XOXO

I love to see or own cute things. Is it a crime? No right? I have every right to like cute things or even act cute or fyi, I am naturally cute.. LOL I like it how we can choose and pick theme in google chrome. I think it's kinda cool for them to actually think about it because most people will spend most of their time googling or surfing the internet. So why not having  to see something that is beautiful to our liking. Why Not??? So, here's my new theme for my google chrome. Please do agree with me that this theme is awesome! To me, this is super cute. One probably because it's pink! But it is still beautiful though. Please agree!!!  Well, that's all for this entry. Hee XOXO

Hey yall! I am back again. And, I am pretty satisfied with my outing today. I watched two movies, and I met an awesome person and I got to spend my time with Amir.  I didn't sleep after Subuh prayer. You all know that because I updated my blog this morning. Then after that I got ready for the dates and everything and yeah, I didn't go check my practicum school.  So, I arrived at the meeting place, early. We promised to meet at 10.30 am but I got there early. And amazing thing was, he said, well this is not a common Malaysian. Because I texted him at 10 a.m. saying that I was already at the place. He was quite surprised. HAHA. Where else can you find a decent person like me? Common Malaysian would probably be about an hour late? LOL Anyway, me and my boyfriend and the ex-owner met there. I had already eaten my fried noodles but didn't manage to finish it though. Probably because I ate it with Milo. I had my own reason when it comes to filling my stomach.

Hey there.. I just started off a new semester. Semester 6! OMG... Such a long time I've actually been here.  But, the time does fly faster than ever. Can't believe I am going to be a final year student next semester.  Anyway, it's been almost like two weeks I've been here and honestly, I keep feeling homesick. I want to go home so badly.. Luckily I am still in Malaysia and not studying overseas and everything so whenever I have this sick feeling I'll probably be running back to my hometown during weekend.  For the past weeks, I had been, not to say busy, I was just pondering over what to do. That's because my housemates, they had a theater which they had to perform so they were very busy practicing every single night!  I really did feel very lonely when the night time came. It was tough.  Sometimes I would ask people to go out and everything, but at this moment, I would rather just spend time with people who could bear the activeness of me