Lovely Goddess; Cause Life is Damn Beautiful

this is not an important entry just my sighing method to release tension~~ hey yall.. i'm not gonna brag about the upcoming tooth or new tooth this is just an ordinary tooth that grows when you're a bit older. *erk, do i look old? ok, no i don't. that's whats troubling me now. the pain, it's unbearable~~~ arghhhhh... so painful... i can feel the swollen gum in my mouth which is very very very PAINFUL i can't eat anything i like! though i ate almost everything. LOL ok, dat's not funny.. the thing is, last night, i really wanted to go to see the dentist badly. but my dad had wedding ceremony or 'kenduri' to attend~ last night i didn't sleep at all, and after subuh prayer only i slept.. i woke up at 10.40 to see syafiza sent me a sms asking me out haish, since during that time, the tooth thingy thing was not so painful, i decided to go out with her so, we went to QB n guess what i had for my lunch? sizzling mee, which i was unable to finish them.. *

tonight i think i like to post an entry about single.. some might not know that i am single.. *hahaha.. isn't it obvious ? :P well, this entry is NOT to promote myself or what, it's just i want to share why am i still single. *warghh, gilak poyo ! * for me, i prefer being single after a hard relationship i faced previously. it's not a trauma actually, it's just that after broke up, i know myself better! teehee but that doesn't mean i am a loner ! erk, why everyone else is so scared being called a loner? i think every human being must want their time alone. they must have their own space to be alone. so, is that a loner ? Ok, back to the topic. the thing is, when you are into a relationship, you have to be really committed into that relationship. you must not hurt your partner and like wise. it's like being committed to marriage. it's just that marriage is another serious thing. n you must truly understand your partner, otherwise, it will create problems like

hey yall, looking at the title of the entry i am sure u guys must have some thoughts in mind.. or perhaps, u guys have forgotten them all already. i'm just gonna share one of my painful childhood memories. *haha, macam banyak je~* there was once, a place called "home" lived by creatures called family... *gimik semata-mata there was a young girl, a teenage girl, aged around 14-16, she was a very neat person. her family was not as rich as the other fortunate girls, she shared her room with her two younger sisters. the sisters always messed up her room, and she was a person who could not live in a mess. one day, seeing the mess in her room, made by her sisters, she decided to clean them up. she threw away all the papers which in her eyes were unimportant. the next morning, she woke up as usual and prepared herself to go to school. usually, she was sent to school by his father. never crossed her mind that day, was going to be a painful day for her that she would remember till

i really love this song ! it's love.... TRANSLATION: When I walked besides you My heart keeps trembling the whole day through Alone, thinking about you Always keeping memories you marked Even if we accidently meet each other I will seemingly looking down Even when you and I surprisingly meet I'll only know to expose a shy little smile Do you understand it now? Do you see through my heart now? The love that comes silently Did you...Did you hear it now? It was my love since the beginning That warmly shines on my icy heart The love that comes to me step by step Although I'm a bit afraid... The one that moved me, my love Just like the rain, disrupted my heart My heart...my heart is already in love Missing you so... Do you understand it now? Do you see through my heart now? The love that comes silently Did you...Did you hear it now? It was my love since the beginning That warmly shines on my icy heart The love that comes to me step by step Although I'm a bit afraid... The o

have you ever feel like when you were holding on to something for such a long time and then one day you say "i wanna give up. i'm tired of this thing"? well, that's what happening to me right now. i really feel like i wanna give up. the thing i've been hoping for years, i feel like it has turned into ashes and can never be the same again. i feel disappointed... really disappointed. i wanna give up, but i don't know if it's the best thing to do. which way to go? oh, i really wish i could clear up this mess. is staying away from the mess the solution to this problem?

hey yall i just decided to write this since i talked about this matter to my friend just now. i went to this program, "jom ke desa" located at kg sungai sumun, bagan datoh, perak! at first, i felt so happy to be able joining this program since i had finished my exams and got nothing to do in college. i was so happy when i got my adopted mother though i was alone being adopted, no partner. pretty nervous at first. but it turned out to be quite well. i was being treated like princess along the program by my adopted mother. well, maybe not like princess but i was going to say that i was treated well and warm heartedly by the whole family. not a problem to me. then, we have this culture night, (malam kebudayaan). this is the night i must not forget! what happened was, my adopted mother and i came late, then there was no table for us to sit together. but my adopted mother was able to find her seat. single seat actually, not for both of us. then, there's another person saying,

entry ni dicurik dari blog miss shiron , which i love it very much ! thank you my dear~ SOMETIMES Sometimes, she is like a mother to me.. ordering me around and taking care of me Sometimes, she is like a little sister to me..(fyi : i dont have one) shorter than me and always act like a kid Sometimes, she is like my sister to me.. giving me guides and know what's inside of me Sometimes, she is like a teacher to me.. teaching how to live in this life and other times i feel like she is my counsellor (jgn marah ye am..hehe) hear me and answering my dumb questions and most Vital and Important thing of all she is my MOST BELOVED FRIEND!!!! this one is only dedicated to me, no other than nur amalina ahmad. there shall be no duplicate of this poem and it belongs to shiron n me ! ahaks ! menompang nama wey! teehee

guwa ditag~~ 1. Ape benda paling penting dlm hidup anda? ans: henpon weh! guwa tak leh idop tak dak fon. n my laptop~~ 2. Benda terakhir anda bli gune wet sendri... ans: buku mr midnight n mr mystery + cd kosong 3. Di mana tempat korg nk melangsungkan perkahwinan anda n tema perkahwinan anda nti ? ans: tempat, erk ?? dewan millenium kah ? haha, aku tak sekaya tu ! >.<'' terpulang kat ayh aku lah, tang mana leh muat owang, balon ja ! theme lak, i like purple, so purple white kot.. 4. Adakah anda sedang bercinta ? ans: apa itu cinta ? ahaks ! saya SINGLE.... 5. Berapa lama anda akan mencintai kekasih anda ? ans: soalan tak dak kena mengena ngn aku, tak mo jawab ! 6. Di mana anda slalu jumpe kekasih anda ? ans: tak mo jawab leh ? ngeh3 nt ada spy tak bertauliah berkeliaran sewaktu berdating~ ~ 7. Novel / buku / majalah terakhir anda beli ? ans: dah sebot kan td~ 8. Apakah nama penuh anda ? ans: nur amalina binti ahmad 9. Antara mak n ayah anda, mana yg anda lg mesra ? ans

i hate it when my mom left a plastic of leftovers, then the flies did their thing there and produced their offspring like RAIN !!!! dammit~~~~~ i cannot cook n clean the sink because of that~~ i hate that creature!!!!! disgusting~ adeh, camna nak masak ni ? quest: y didn't i throw away the leftovers plastic at the first place? ans: i hate dealing with leftovers~~ *tak bley kawen~ T.T p/s:sapa nak jadik laki aku, tolong jgn takot dengan renga aka ulat sampah !!!! arggghhh !

today is a very special occasion which i made it to my blog.. so what's so special about today ? it's friday and it's hot, bla bla bla bla .... ok, stop nagging at me a'ight? today is someone's birthday a very dearest friend of mine, that is why it so special today~ heeee... to shiron, i made this entry just for you ! HAPPY BIRTHDAY DEAR DARLING may u become clearer instead of blur ! sweet 19th birthday, baking her own birthday cake.. ********* so who's shiron ? you won't find her as the best creature that lives on earth, but you can find her as a good listener instead of a good advisor.. you cannot find her doing nothing in her room, you can find her helping others you might sometimes feel hurt, being pinched and slapped at.. it's a good thing she has 'reduced' the habit meaning, less pinch, less slap :) between me n her, i think we have a very good chemistry we always spill out the exact phrase, word by word !!! i hate it when this happens~~ it

assalamualaikum wbt.. guess what, exam's over ! i don't know why, but recently, i've been talking about exam most of the time. y? because for the last semesters, we didn't have any exam. that's why. even if we have, it's only mock exam. i didn't even work hard for it, honestly speaking~ btw, since exam's over, and we got our allowance, my friends and i went and enjoyed ourselves at JJ. so, right after exam, after change our clothes, we went to JJ straight away. we watched a movie, which i've forgotten its title. *too bad~ my friends asked me to buy something for them, but after got out from the cinema, all stores had closed ! i was quite panicked because the things that my friend asked to buy is for the program and needed to be settled as soon as possible. luckily, JJ department had not close theirs yet. we went back to maktab with some misunderstood. not created but a total misunderstood. i cried after i got back to my room with the feeling guilty a

suddenly i become so energetic to up date the entry~~ oke, i lied. i am bored ! i am waiting for my burger.. am so pathetic today. i know, i am not supposed to be like this, but when i am not well, everything will be affected. poor thing.. the es paper.... i want to comment so much about this. the paper is 3 hours, my roommate already thought it was long enough. but when i answered, it's not enough. my hand is running on the paper. it sweat a lot too. there's what happened when there are so many ideas in your head, and you have only 180 minutes to answer the questions. the weird thing that happened today is, i managed to finish Macbeth text within 3 hours. that was awesome ! the night before, i spent my night with TKAM. and i felt like my head was fulled with so many things, and during the exam, i spilled everything ! and now, my head is empty. i skipped lunch and guess what's the consequences i've to get now? headache ! that's just great you know. n this little fel

i am so tired with this thing called examination. i admit it, i like exam. but though, it still an exhausting thing to do. :( during our previous semester, we didn't have exam. and in our final semester only got exam. and now it's the time. you may think that, we had a bunch of time to study before the final exam. LOL. i don't think so. that's because i am not a person who will study in the early hour. i'm the last minute creature~~ kuang3.. that's the reason why my result has never been a tip top one ! LOL serves u right ! T.T but i know, during my exam, i'll do my best. as my friend said, i have a very strong and powerful which Allah has given me. i am very thankful. today, which is dated 9th of November, which is also a birthday of my friend, and also, the English Studies' exam. i've been filling my brain with TKAM and Macbeth stuff, and i think my head is full. Ok, that is so unreal. i was reading Macbeth text just now, and i thought i wanted to

assalamualaikum wbt. this is a heart to heart confession, if the words below are unbearable for yall to read, just close the tab. there is something in life that even though you worked really hard for it but you just can't achieve it. but that does not mean you have to stop chasing and stop working hard for it. the decision whether you get it or you don't get it is not yours, but it's ALLAH's for muslim, and GOD's for non-muslim. get what i mean or not? i really appreciate it when people around me kept telling, "you don't have to study, you already got the brain". for me, i don't really like this kind of comment, seriously. it hurts me. you may think it's a compliment, but i would rather think it as a sarcastic. because a person does not born from his/her mother's womb as a genius. he or she still need to gain knowledge by studying. n practically, studying does not mean you sit down and face the book 24 hours! think about it. i am not makin

My beloved J7 class Heh. Arini nak cakap sal budak-budak kelas aku yg aku syg gilerr… n setiap sorang dari dowang nih, mesti je ade bende yg aku admire. First, aku nak cakap sal orang yg duduk sebelah aku lam kelas. Walaupon, kitowang selalunya merempat je. Huhuk. >.<” Hah, sape orang tu? Tak lain tak bukan, mestilah shidah ! bende yg aku admire gegile kat die kan, die nye fokus lau wat keje. Aisey, tak leh lawan oo. Like in my previous entry, there was a story I told about her, a bit. A few descriptions lah katekan. Bab wat tasks or assignments yg lecturer bgi, memang aku admire ar die. Kejap je da siap. So, lau lam kelas tu, yg selalu siap kerja, mmg die lah. Walopon, org len pon siapkan keje gk, tp die yg plg org kompem kalau bab dah siapkan keje. Ahaks. Next, nak ckp sal rummet shidah ni lak, hanim. Hmm, part yg aku admire gil e hanim ni adalah, die ni sowang yg lemah lembut giler arh. Kalau nak diratekan kelemah lembutan die ni, aku bgi 8/10. Hah, banyak la tue. Han

assalamualaikum w.b.t. oh, hari ni malas giler nak study. y??? bukak2 mata ja, rummet tak dak. huhhhh? mana rummet aku??? "keluaq kot" ni ja yg leh aku pkiaq. dan, adalah stu kemestian setiap ari untuk mengadap laptop kesayangan nih... punya dok ralit ngadap internet, kemalasan untuk berstudy telah menguasai jiwa. >.<" apa patot aku buat? mata pon berat semacam ja~ lusa dah ada paper, LDES. paper grammar ! n, reported speech x abeh kaji lgi. haishhh.. T.T 1 nov 2010 = paper l.des (grammar) 2 nov 2010 = paper LDV. (x tau nak study apa) pastu CUTI cuti = studi K sebab, 9 nov 2010, paper ES (literature lak) 10 nov 2010 paper SS (kajian sosial) meh aku senaraikan benda apa yg nak kena baca utk paper es, MACBETH ! TO KILL A MOCKINGBIRD segala tok nenek poem n short stories waktu sem 1 >.<" persoalannya, sempatkah? hahaha SS lagiiii.. dengan nota bersepah merata alam.. exam, x penah rasa beban exam sampai lagu ni. T.T sekarang, tak rasa nak stadi grammar, seba

assalamualaikum w.b.t. aku ada satu soalan yang tak habih pikiaq. ampa tolong jawab sat. kenapa ada lelaki awww?? post ni tak dak tuju kat sapa2, cuma kadang2 terlintas kat fikiran aku ja. sebab, hari-hari aku dok nampak budak yg macam nih. aku memang tak leh lupa la waktu first time tengok dia ..... ***** di suatu pagi, aku dengan member berjalan lah menuju ke tapak speaker's corner lokasi nya, blok sri siantan *jangan tanya aku napa nama dia sri siantan, aku hawin gak satgi* dah dapat port yang baik nya utk mendengar la speakers2 junior ni mata aku terpandang kat sowang laki nih... ushar la, tunggu pa gi. tengok muka, first impression aku :: machooooo gilaa budak nihh... kali kedua aku tengok budak nih, dia berjalan n, bayangkan aku kena hempap dengan batu yg turun dari langit macam dalam cita katun or komik mana2.. macam tu la aku rasa.. haishh,, muka dah macho kowt. kenapa la jalan lagu tuh? ala2 model gitu, you know, catwalk ! ***** n sejak hari tu, aku rasa rugi betoii la ken

assalamualaikum wbt sebelom itu, saya ingin menyatakan bahawa entry di bawah penuh dgn bahasa kasar yg mungkin sakit telinga lau mendengarnya. harap maklum. budak2 bawah umuq, sila JANGAN baca. *bajet macam ramai ja baca* saya rasa tak puas hati n nak mengadu la kat cik blog kesayangan nih. well2, buat pengetahuan semua, my institute (dirahsiakan) tak bagi bawak kenderaan utk penghuni yg duduk dalam kampus... of course la kan, mesti la ada yang tak puas hati sal benda ni, termasok la saya pon kan.. mana la tak puas hati, kalau nak pi makan kat kedai, jenoh bejalan tau. kalau makan kat kedai tu, balik bilik ja, da lapaq balik. bek x yah makan.. erk,..? haish, saya bukan jin okay, dapat kenyang makan asap ja. saya ni manusia, x kan la x makan. bukan ada cafeteria ka kat kampus? jawapan: memang la ada, tapi, larat ka nak makan lauk yg sama ari2? lembu kot la x boring makan rumput. ka, aku yg mengada sgt? haha, wateva la.. n, fyi, cafe tu hanya bukak pada weekdays sahaja, meaning, weekend

assalamualaikum.. haish, tengah sedap-sedap menaip, boleh pulak takde letrik.. sabau je la. ok, sebenarnya da lari dari topik nih. TODAY, i watched the K's group debate. and guess what, k11 and k13 were so damn good ! haha. but, the better is of course k11. the thing is, we have to debate against k11 ! i've no confidence at all. seeing them performing, makes my knees shaking and my stomach filled with MILLIONS of butterflies !! :( uhuk3 which means, I AM NERVOUS ! then i went back to my room, without my roommate, i was sitting alone. lepas makan megi tomyam n pekena teh o' panas, i started thinking, LIKE THIS........ *check it out, yo-yo bebeh* we all have our own FEAR. tak kisah la, takut exam ke, takut cicak ke, takut lipas ke, takut DEBATE ke..... *opsssss... but not many of us have this... COURAGE ! so, who are we going to be? i mean, we have choices... either being a coward or being a courageous person? hmm,, senirik jawab la yer.. x kan nak suruh saya lark kan? but fo