Lovely Goddess; Cause Life is Damn Beautiful

It had been a pretty tough days lately. Yesterday, class was full, as usual. After class, my friends and I went to see the supervisor lecturer for Art subject and at that bloody moment, my phone broke down.  I was already fidgeting during the meeting, and believe it or not, the lecturer was super kind and super soft that day. He explained everything that needed to be done even though we already knew.  After half an hour, the session ended and I quickly went to Giant to go and fix my phone. I considered myself lucky because the shop there said I have to send to the phone centre and needed to wait for 3 days plus, I have to pay RM40. According to the person, it was software problem. I am sure he doesn't know what he's dealing with. So I took the phone.  Thinking of not having money to buy another phone, I told myself, keep calm. There has got to be a way to solve this. I felt like crying. I opened up my car door and told myself, it's Okay. I can deal with this.

Practicum's day is going to be sooner than I thought. Though  I know very well that the exact date is on 27th of January, but still, how can the time fly super fast?  Despite that, being here there seems to be a lot to be done but honestly, I haven't done anything at all. So not proud of that.   Today, I skipped class, not willingly though. I had headache this morning. Even till noon, the pain was still there. I felt dizzy and couldn't think. All I could do were lying on bed and stare at my phone. or sleep. Still thinking, what's wrong with my body? Till now, I couldn't find the answer.  It happened when I was just about to wake up. The phone was buzzing near my ear due to the alarm. It's not ringing because it's on silent mode, thus, buzzing. I opened my eyes and I felt like there's a heavy rock on my head. So I hit the snooze button and slept for 10 minutes more. I forced myself to wake, and took a bath, and prayed. Then I asked for panad

i am not sure whether this picture is true or not because i tried to look it up on wikipedia but i couldn't find the exact picture, or words.  for sure, i do not know whether i shall complain about this or not. it's a starting of a new year and i really do not want to waste any time complaining about things, even if it is as simple as this issue.  if people say i don't care about the subsidy that had been taken back, or cut, or whatever, i care. i am a human being and a person who always has an intense relationship with money, i will always care. especially, i am a student who is about to go for her third practicum, teaching, and has to rent two houses, not to mention the expensive price of the gas now to go back and forth driving a car.  i want to be as optimistic as i could, so i tell myself, and a friend, yippee, Malaysia now is upgrading to a higher standard. look at US, if you're broke don't ever go there lah, confirm you will not survive. e

This is not supposed to be the first entry for 2014. But somehow I just felt the urge to write these things down on my blog. But who cares? Nobody has ever said anything on what I should post on the very first entry for a new year.  2013 has taught me a lot about life, love, and friendship. I learned my lesson well, had scars from it, but still manage to get through it. Life still moving on even though you are just sitting still.  I'll write another post about how my 2013 year had been even though it pretty much about the same things that I had written on this blog for 2013 entry.  First night on new year, I had cried. Second night on new year I also cried. I guess I really feel lost in this place. I don't want to be here. I want to be at home. With my sisters and brothers. Last night I cried. LOL. I missed my little sister too much.  She is the one who is always there for me. Every night during the holiday, we would talk non-stop until both of us were drifted