Lovely Goddess; Cause Life is Damn Beautiful

i followed a lot of shops in instagram. and it made me feel not wanting to turn on the app at all. it's true though. i love to share pictures. but it is usually for the purpose of wanting to keep the memory of it and what i thought of it at that particular moment. not that i wanted to share my close up pictures for the purpose of liking addiction. half of it yes, but not most of it. who am i kidding. so, back to my story, since i followed a lot of instagram shops, and most of them are selling makeup products, i was intrigued to try some of the products. one of the most appealing products to me was this matte lipstick. it is called kissproof. i looked at the price and thought, man, this is super cheap. should i buy, or should not i buy this? i am very particular when it comes to lip product because my lips are very sensitive when it comes to cheap products. so, one day, i came across a booth when i accompanied my friend to buy new sandals. this booth was selling makeup products

well, i guess in a relationship there is no rule like this.  no 1: jangan selongkar dompet.  kalau tak suka your wife or your girl buat nih, don't do the same. you have no right as well. and please make it clear and follow the rule you created yourself.  no 2: pantang minta berborak while he is watching television.  lol. then don't be mad when your girl wanted to go out for a walk on her own because you are too busy spending time watching countless football match on tv.  erm, what if your daughter asked for your help, would you deny her too? too bad, you can't be a good father then. delete delete delete you from being a husband. that's what a girl would do.  no 3: pantang waktu tidur diganggu.  kalau dah tidur 24 jam sehari, part maan takleh diganggu tu? lol. ada exception tak? what if your girl is in danger or has emergency while you're asleep and she calls you, and you didn't pick up?  then don't be mad if someone else

i guess life has been great so far for me. even though today, i scolded the kids really hard. i hope they don't take it to their heart. it's for their own good. and they started to disrespect me as well. anyway, today is the first day of Ramadhan and Alhamdulillah, everything went well. i didnt fall sick like usual and managed to go through today. hopefully tomorrow will be better. and yes, i started to fall in love with this career. i love spending time to create teaching arts and google more about how to teach. unfortunately, i left all my reference books at home. i had always thought i could bring them here, but there had been a few times when i came here by bus and there's no freaking way i was gonna put all the heavy books and carry them with me. i had to walk a long way from the LRT to my house okay. this is just an update to future me. if you're reading, i just want you to know that i am now happy here. i enjoyed my teaching days very much. and i appreciate al

tonight is my last night i spend at home for this holiday. tomorrow morning i will be heading out to ampang. wish me luck guys. after maghrib, i went out with my brother to buy my ticket for tomorrow, and i couldnt believe it. transnasional tickets are sold out. so i just bought whatever is left and i needed to go back early morning tomorrow. :) so as soon as i bought my ticket, my brother and i went to aeon big to buy a new smartphone for my father. he requested it. i couldn't believe that my father would spend that much money for a smartphone. i mean, he is always a money saver. so i couldnt believe it that he wanted me to buy a new smartphone. probably because all of his friends are asking him to buy a smartphone and have a whatsapp. haha. well, you know how things go around with whatsapp nowadays. it's already nearly midnight and i honestly do not want to sleep early. i have to pack my things for tomorrow. so sad leaving here. honestly. oh yeah, since my dad bought the

so I just registered on e-gaji. a website where you can your payment slip online.  to think back, all sorts of tiredness and what I did in school, working, it seemed worth it. I received a lot. and for that I should be thankful. :)  some people out there are still finding a job and some unfortunate people just got fired.. I pray for your best. may you find your perfect job one day.  is this my perfect job? I have no idea. but I'm loving the fact that I got to go back early, like by the time it reaches 2 p.m. I will usually be at home already. usually. some other time, I had to stay back until 6 p.m., it's like 12 hour working and you didn't get any extra payment. it was done for sake of the kids. truly. well, maybe partly. hehe. I'm just being honest. truthfully, I may love my job. :)  

how sweet. so today i went out with my father because i was asked to accompany him and to select the colours for the tiles that we are going to put in the kitchen.  when he drove the car we came across a stall where durians are sold.  he asked me, should he buy the durians?  i was not into durians for the moment so i asked him, do you want to eat? go ahead and buy it.  then he told me that we all of his children are around, he wanted to buy the food. it is no fun to eat all sorts of food when we are not around.  hihik.  my dad is super sweet. you see now why it is so freaking hard for me to stop eating at home?  then we stopped at a food stall where they sell this delicious capati. no kidding, i've probably mentioned them around but if you come around here, i will take you to eat delicious food i had always known around here.  #notgoingtoconvo #mydadissupersweet

Thing that had been made perfectly. With its curves and everything. Why do u look so messed up when you are burned? I guess we all feel this way. Deep down inside. But know what? This is definitely not how a teacher looks like when they are claimed to sacrifice themselves for their students. Nope. Hell i want to look like that.

just now my uncle told me i got fatter.  haha.. despite the honest remark he gave me, i felt useless, well, a bit.. then i quit blaming myself after seeing food. that is just typical me. i admit, that i gained weight. ever since i started working. hm, i wonder why. but then i start this love hate relationship with myself.  there was once i was following a crazy exercise on youtube and what did i get? i almost fainted and i TRULY felt like dying. i could feel like my heart was not able to pump enough blood through all my body especially my brain and i was seriously felt like i didn't have enough air.  it was desperately scary. i was desperate and scared.  i even had the thought of, am I gonna die?  that is true.  luckily, i went downstairs and i was lying on the floor while my body tried their best to get the oxygen from the blood. i was dizzy. my room mate handed me a glass of drink and i got a hard scolding from her because i did such a crazy thing. 

I always treasure the time spent at my home. As always there is nothing else feels like home. And yes i love spending time with my beloved family especially my sisters even though we always quarrel and fights about unimportant stuff. Simply put, you give me holidays and when i am at home you just cant take them away from me. I hardly go out with friends during my holidays. There will be a convocation next week during my holidays. At first i felt sad about not going. Now when i am at home i dont feel like going anymore. It just feels so good to be at home and eat home cooked meals by my mom. So i had this conversation about convocation with my mom. I asked her should i go? I added, i just loved being at home and eat her cooked meals. She asked me, "when will i be eating your cooked meal then?" I simply replied, "after i got married." She then argued with me saying that, after i got married i will be busy with my kids and all that. Haha. Mom. No worries. I