Lovely Goddess; Cause Life is Damn Beautiful

When i dreamed about living together with my husband, i can never truly imagined how my life would turn out to be. Of course the imagination runs but i didnt feel it. Until the news that my application for transferring had been approved. It was thrilling and very exciting. And the holiday passed by.  The first few weeks i spent juggling wasnt easy. I felt like crying. I fought with my husband a lot. I couldnt enjoy my time spent with my family and i turned out to be very tired at the end of the day. I becaming a monster everyday. It's not fun anymore. Living like that. That's what i thought.  So i turned to a friend, and she advised me as well as giving me tips. I tried to follow, but then again, i kinda slipped out a bit. I tried.  Until last week.  It was a very exhausting day for me. It was Wednesday when we had our first extra curricular activities. I went back home really late. And after setling down and everything, i lay down in bed. My husband was tired

i'm taking some time off from my work. just for a little bit. this morning i came across my wedding picture. and now i kept remembering my baby. alahai, kesian anak mama. suddenly i remembered, holding my little baby. he was so tiny. when he was one month old, he has prolong jaundice. before we headed to perak, we stopped by at hospital seberang jaya for his appointment. the doctor needs his urine sample. so how to collect his urine? the nurses there connected tube to his penis and i just needed to feed him non stop. i was feeding him for some time.. and i kept on checking on the urine bag, there were too little. then i felt the hot water near my pants, turned out, it was leaking. lol. the urine even spilled on the floor and on to me. while this little guy, sleeping peacefully. now that he has lots to say, i miss him. semalam, i was super stressed with him. he just wants me. he didnt want to be put down. i was super exhausted at that time. now i regretted it.