Lovely Goddess; Cause Life is Damn Beautiful

why is it, that those married couple LOVE to ask not married couple to be married quickly.  people think it is so freaking easy to be married, like someone comes to ask for a hand in marriage, and then tomorrow they're gonna be married.  for me, i would prefer to use my own money for the wedding. even if it means, small wedding. i don't mind. why do people ask me to use my father's money? i know, even when the time comes, he will pull out his money as well, but for now, it is not necessary or wajib to use all of his money for me to get married. i am working.  so that is embarrassing. even though there is no standard or law saying that every couple who wants to get married must use their own money or whatever,  still, i am embarrassed to ask from my father. is it weird?  and yes,  i am lucky enough to have a father who said, hantaran tak payah mahal-mahal. no need to be membazir. penat-penat cari duit. i hope he can be truly understanding wh

He called me this morning. He said to be careful because of the low yat 's case. Hmm. I havent thought about it and I am not the racist kind of person. It is not that such cases did not happen to me before,being cheated for buying something and it is not always the fault of any races at all. It is the human being itself. It is soley the person who is doing it. If he is bad, then he is bad, not because he is in a certain race so the bad blood must run in him. Nope. I certainly dont believe that. People who think that there are a lot of bad people may not have encountered the kindness of others. I have. Countless times. I watched and I read. Try to be a little bit more open minded. Just like the myvi case that had happened a few months ago. Just because of one or two particular driver,all of myvis driver are labelled as a murderer. How fair is that? People nowadays are too influenced with media. Before you act upon something think first. What you did to others and what are the

gems-from-you : I don’t understand why people get bored of each other. Of course you’re going to figure someone out. Of course you will memorize their habits. So what? Instead of focusing on being bored with who once meant everything to you, focus on knowing that a new day is coming each following day and it will be spent with them. There’s your excitement. Treat them nicely, with respect, with love. They’re not a piece for the purpose of your entertainment. They’re human and they’re not perfect. source - gems-from-you tumblr this is so true. I cannot agree more on this. 3 years and counting. :)  

I had always been a carefree person. I go out whenever I feel like it. I do what I want to do however I like it, whenever I like it.  but today, I feel so helpless, and so much in prison. because I cannot go out. the only way to go out is when my room mate asked me out. well, that is not the only way. but I just wish that I have a car as if right now so whenever I feel bored, I will just go out for a drive. or maybe hit my relative's place.  last night was super awful. I felt like going mad. I called my boyfriend, he didn't pick up and I went hysterical with that. Luckily he has two phones and I called another number.  I seriously was like a person who needed a anti-depressant shot. or pill.  like a mad cow I was yesterday. I even watched Korean drama which the main cast is my favourite actress of all time, but still, I felt super bored. have you ever felt that? boredom to the point of even watching movies or dramas will still make you feel bored. and you just

today, two of my students cried during my class.  adoi, nak gelak pon ada. siyes.  there is this student, he is a bit special, tapi dia takdak yang tak normal in terms of physical appearance. cuma, he is just lack of love and he cannot control his temper. at all.  dah banyak kali dah dia mengamuk dalam kelas. maybe upbringing dia macam tu. i don't know. but i see his potential and he is kind. selalu tolong aku dalam kelas. cuma, at times, aku annoyed sebab dia selalu jawab untuk orang lain, and dah banyak kali dah aku warn dia, jangan jawab untuk orang lain.  today, lesson aku, nak suruh budak-budak tu buat poster.  i sat them in groups. this special boy, i asked him to join the rest of the guys. sebab dia selalu tak nak buat kerja group. he just can't. dia tak boleh tolerate kalau orang tak terima cadangan dia. haha. macam aku la pulak kan. at least aku takde la mengamuk cam dia.  so, tengah dorang buat kerja, aku tanda buku latihan. tiba-tiba this sp

i was writing about how i felt just now, and ended up crying..  -.-''  and i went upstairs and called him, and yes, he's my painkiller. he knows exactly how to make me smile.  and yes, sometimes it is annoying, but who doesn't annoy their own partners at times right? but that annoyance just makes me smiles. keep annoying me honey. haha. eh, don't. jangan selalu lah.  and here i am, deleting the post i was writing just now.  maybe it is best not to put those feelings into words. and heal it before it becomes encrypted and everyone will know.  maybe it is best to talk to someone and let them hear you, let them scold you, let them nag at you, and talk, as long as you could. cuz i did, and i feel better now.  nearly an hour i was on the phone with him, most of the times i talked about how i felt and then men did what men know what to do, offering solution.  and i heard him out because there were truths in his words. :) 

missing this person. badly. T_T  *sulking*  hopefully, the news we received, will bring a new shine to us. even though the distance is getting longer and farther, i hope it will make us even more closer. distance is just another obstacle in our lives.  part of me wishing that you will be posted to the school, even you have to start on first January, i hope it is.  because that will make it easier for us. if it isn't the way i thought it would be,  then,  i'd be praying the best for both of us.  inshaAllah, one day.  you and me.  and that day, will happen. one day.  :) 

And so today, my room mate decided to eat out during break fast. We went out after maghrib prayer and quickly went to our favourite restaurant and had a delicious meal. Alhamdulillah.  After we finished eating, we went back home to pick up another house mate. And we went straight ahead to Berjaya Times Square as we want to watch terminator. to be honest, the movie wasn't that good. i nearly slept while my room mate had closed her eyes for few minutes during the movie. lol.  i just had an awesome day with the girls. i am so happy to have them in my life. here are the pictures. That's me and Hidayah. ^^  The four of us.  and yes, if you're wondering, i haven't slept. my eyes hurt and my head hurts too.  i am waiting for sahur and subuh so that if i fell asleep, i won't miss subuh. one hour to go. good luck dear self. 

Yesterday I changed the sitting arrangement for the kids in marikh. Today, 12 of them didn’t come to school because they don’t like the arrangement. Lol. And yes, if you’re wondering, I am not going to change my mind just because they don’t come to school over this matter. Somehow, they can’t run away from school. So today, since most of them were not around, my lesson went on smoothly. I pasted pictures on the board and they loved to look at the pictures. So the teaching went on as usual. And as for zuhrah, I prepared a quiz for them to answer. And before the quiz, the kids were interviewing me. I was wearing a half moon shawl today. Here are the amusing questions I received because they liked to look at me. Alya: Teacher, you look so pelik pelik today? Alya: Teacher, panjangnya eyeliner teacher. Syafiqah: Teacher, what is your old? (How old are you) Syafiqah: Teacher, how old is your boyfriend? Alya: Is your boyfriend handsome? Every day, I got quest