Lovely Goddess; Cause Life is Damn Beautiful

just now,my husband sent me here. so back to regular normal life where it involves baby, work and other small yet important stuff. I am just so grateful right now for what I have. although it looks lacking and I admit it's true, but I am perfectly happy with what I have now. Alhamdulillah. it is not gonna be easy. but I trust Allah. he is the best planner and he knows what's best for me. all I gotta do is pray for him. Insha Allah he will grant me my wishes. Aamiin. I pray for my husband to be in his blessings all the time. semoga Allah merahmati suami ku atas segala pengorbanan yg telah dia lakukan. Aamiin. I am very tired right now. so I'mma hit the bed. nite peepers. 

Ever heard of a saying, jaga aib orang and Allah akan jaga aib awak. It happened to me recently. I didn't notice it until yesterday. Before this, I love gossiping. I know it is bad. Whenever my colleagues did something wrong and funny, I would tell my friend about it. I didnt shut my mouth. I know. It's just wrong. Here is my story of what happened yesterday. Last time when i did the linus, i turned the result way down. I know. Probabyly because i just failed to have the patience to test each one of them. I became impatient. Then last week, we had a meeting on linus. And the penyelaras, talked about this. I didnt feel wrong at all because in my opinion, the ones i had failed, deserve it. They really didnt know how to read. Boy was i wrong.. In the meeting, one of the teachers requested to let the one who made the linus results dropped to speak about it. Luckily the penyelaras said, he didnt want to reveal the name as to respect this person. Maybe she had her own

I had two classes straight yesterday. And I did my saringan LINUS. I kept complaining that others didn't do my work when I was gone, totally forgetting to thank those who did. Astaghfirullah. Seriously Tak taw hormon apa yg menggangu aku for the past few days. Aku lupa untuk jadi seorang yg kuat dan tak mudah mengeluh dan mengalah. I should be better than this. Lepas buat LINUS dengan kelas yg pertama, aku dah stress rasa tension yg amat then I felt my body weakend. Masuk kelas nombor dua, aku jadi lembik and lemau. Something's wrong. I just knew it. Masa nak buat LINUS dgn kelas kedua tu, aku dah tak larat sangat. So instead buat saringan lisan, I did writing. Bimbing balik yg salah-salah tu. Aku just buat tu. Alhamdulillah mungkin Allah nak tolong jugak, kelas aku time tu takde lah bising mana. Habis kelas tu I thought nak minum something hot. Tapi pantry penuh so aku bancuh air and duduk dengan akak ni. I told her my problem dengan LINUS. Turned out, she had differe

I am a fool. What I said previously was a fool. I was upset and greedy. I wanted to have more than I already have. I was totally stupid thinking what they have is better than what I have. Now, it doesn't really matter anymore. I am feeling content with what I have now. Alhamdulillah. I want to be more grateful in my life. Marrying my husband is the best decision I have ever made. And giving birth to ! my cute son is the greatest thing ever happened to me. Alhamdulillah. Without these two, I won't be who I am today. Alhamdulillah. I won't trade my life with anyone else now. I am happy with my life. I am happy with my work. I am happy with my relationships. Good friends. Alhamdulillah.