Lovely Goddess; Cause Life is Damn Beautiful

please read this as an imperfect person. in life, there are people who are giving you the moment you never thought you could be in. you thought you'd be dying from it, you'd get weaker, but it turned out, you became stronger.  that is part of life I suppose.  there are few things that kept bugging me for weeks. it left me a hole in my heart. it used to be a healing wound, but because of the incident, the wound started to bleed again.  I tried to be nice to everyone. Even though they gave unwanted things to me. my part, I tried.  but then, some people are just too stubborn and too ignorant to let go things from the past.  from the incident, I strongly told myself, stop being nice to the people who had hurt me. in the end, when I am down, it's not them I am leaning onto. it'll be me, my parents, my family, him, and few of my really good friends.  so, here is the farewell to me being kind to them. there's pity but not kindness anymore. 

yesterday, I did not want to go back to Ipoh as I was not feeling well. but then I needed to send my grandmother to my uncle's house in Bukit Berutung. so my brother and I headed to Bukit Beruntung around 2 p.m. I took the picture below while my brother was driving. I am now really enjoying my road trip and my digital camera. *Someday I'll own a DSLR.   lately I really enjoyed taking pictures with my digital camera. I don't know why. road to Bukit Beruntung the picture above has nothing to do with the road trip. this is just me saying, I don't have enough scarfs or hijabs! look at that. a bunch of them! funny. 

I've been at home for the past few days. I was supposed to go back yesterday but my best friend is getting married tomorrow, so here I am. Still at home. I really hope no one will ask me when am I getting married. Such a boring question and I really don't have the answer for that.. >__< Sometimes it is boring to stay at home doing nothing. We don't have astro at home so yeah, sometimes it gets bored. So here are the things I did yesterday. The view.  Youngest brother. He's big now.  Tropical season. There's no season! It has always been like this. Well, sometimes it rains.  The bricks!  Construction worker?  Damn right. That's my hair clipper. Split into two just to get his things done. My youngest brother's doing.  That's it for the entire entry for today. I have few things to do. Good day everyone. 

the warmth i received as soon as i reached home. my little brother, kakak, tengok fizi dah nak sama tinggi dengan kakak. his height now is reaching my chest. man, this boy grows so fast. still remember when he was just a baby. he was super adorable and he was the star in the house. everyone can't stop playing with him. now that he has grown up a little bit, no one has ever watched him play anymore. haha. pity my brother.  i guess that's why he loves it when i came back home. because i would give my attention to him. like, the morning routine i have. kissing him until he wakes up. i wonder, when will i stop doing it? i can't!  i guess he's my favourite boy besides my boyfriend. i cannot resist from asking him to kiss me..  adik, sayang kakak 10 kali!  he would come and kiss me on both cheeks for tenth times!  he is so proud of me. i remembered there was one time, he was showing off with his friends. that's my sister. he said.  i miss him now

have you ever felt like, you are giving too much to others but you received nothing from them. all you did was giving and taking was never part of your life. i am not being selfish, but sometimes i am sick of those people who i've been nice with. i'd help them and do things for them but in the end, what did i received? a harsh look.  i am so not gonna be nice to all people.