Lovely Goddess; Cause Life is Damn Beautiful

just now, when my mom talked about his friend had this plant named keladi, or yam that is berjurai-jurai dia punya akar, i asked my mom,  'keladi bukan miang ke?'  so my mum said, 'keladi mana miang.' my response was, 'eh keladi tak miang ke mak?'  mom: keladi tak miang la. keladi gatal.  me: then, what the difference, miang dengan gatal? lelaki miang tu kan maksudnya lelaki gatal.  mom: ......... 

it must be hard on him too, i guess.  because every time i got an invitation to a wedding, i would say stuff to him like, when is it gonna be my turn? i am tired of waiting. why can't i have that?  and he kept telling me to be patient, with everything.  as a boyfriend who would always fulfill everything i need and want, it must've been hard for him as well, because everytime the topic was brought up, he has nothing else to say other than telling me to be patient with him.  the condition that his mother gave him is, for him to be working first.  and that is like impossible for him. as, he has to finish his studies first.  i didn't mind waiting as it gives me time to be with myself first. although at times it was really really hard to stay away from him.  i guess, he must've felt hopeless and just hoping that i am willing to wait for him.  p/s: i am not desperate to be married, i am just saying.  it's nice ...

there's this married woman i met months ago. she is constantly talking about her husband. sometimes i didn't even ask, she would tell us stories about them. i don't want to be rude but in my head, it was like, 'did I even ask?'  but it's the truth, and it was really bothering. so at times, I would avoid this woman. 

I just watched PLL, season 5 if you must ask me, and I was wondering, are those real?  Does it happen in real life too? Sounds too complicated, isn't it?  But then I read a book that I just bought, and the title is KL Noir, and it made me think, someone else's life out there IS complicated. While I am sitting around here being lazy and just watch movies, someone out there is fighting for their life.  And it leads me down to feeling grateful. Feeling grateful that I had been given all these luxuries when some people out there are praying for it. 

I am now in the lrt heading to ampang. All this while i just watched the news about bersih. But today i kind of witnessed it. Man, there sure are a lot of people wearing bersih shirt today. Shocking things to see for a kampung girl like me.

the other day, i was furious at 5 Marikh, because they liked to tease this boy and he ended up going crazy and cried. it was disturbing. so i was really really really really angry and they were all afraid of me and they didn't say a word at all.  i told them, this is my level 3 of my anger. they never want to see my anger level at 10.  so yesterday, when i asked 5 marikh to sit down, and it was really hard at first, and i made the angry face,  one of the boys said, "kau nak tengok ke teacher marah level 10?" do you want teacher to be at level 10 when she is angry?  i felt like laughing, but of course i had to control my face so i put on the stern face.  hai, nak perli aku ke apa, level 10. hahaha... 

yesterday, i entered 5 Marikh first. which is the fourth class out of the six classes of Year 5.  i had fun teaching them, since i printed out big picture and they were really interested in learning. even though they are a bit noisy, but i just let them since my throat was hurt.  when i was teaching, i could see there was one pupil who kept looking into the classroom. he was from another class and he seemed interested in what i teach. :) i felt proud for awhile.  after i ended with marikh, i went to Zuhrah. they are the second class out of six. so, they are considered a good class. when i gave them work at 11.30 a.m., i sat down and did my lesson plan for the next week.  i drew three tables on the board, hoping that they will fill them in.  but at 12 o'clock, there was this boy, who had just copied one table. half an hour, what was he doing??????  i picked his book and i threw his book. yes. i was furious.  then i warn...