7 nov 2016

this weekend was amazing. every weekend of mine now is amazing because i get to spend time with him. 

yesterday was his convocation day. i am so proud of him. despite of all the things that happened to him, his family and us, he still managed to put on a smile on his face and he is really content about his life. 

i cried when he wanted to go home. when we're sleeping in my car because both of us were exhausted. i cried while he was sleeping. so hard. because it is sad to watch him leave like that. i want him by my side everyday. 

he wiped my tears and then it started to rain so we went for a 2 hours karaoke session. i am so glad i get to hold him and hug him as much as i want even though those weren't enough. wanted to go back to him but my responsibility is here. then my egtukar result came out. i cried again because i didn't pass the transfer. he wiped my tears again and told me it's okay. we can try again. he really has a way to make me smile while tears running down my face. that is why i love him so much. he just knows me. the real me. 

to my dearest husband, 

i am sorry for now i can't be a good wife. i can't cook for you on weekend because i am pregnant. and most of the times i would want to sleep. but i am seriously in love with you and i want to spend the rest of my life with you raising our kids together. one day honey. one day. inshaAllah.