Lovely Goddess; Cause Life is Damn Beautiful

life is just funny that way. recently when i had a talk among the teachers, i admit, i did say something about me being given too much work. but that does not mean anything. i am just saying i have lots of jobs given to me. i wonder, is that even considered a complaint when all i did was giving a statement?  misunderstandings happen everywhere. you never know when it will hit you. when people will bring rumors about you everywhere they go, and they will tell whoever they meet. word wise, choose your words carefully and be a listener instead of a speaker. seriously. this deadly act of 'tolong sampaikan' is a very dangerous thing. and it is happening in my reality.  a day when i went out for a meeting and i didn't go to school, i heard news about me, received by my room mate who is also a new teacher like me. we only have each other to trust because to other teachers, we are still new and we are outsiders. i was shocked by the news and pretty much, angry.  the n

if you asked me who do i miss the most, i can hardly answer. i can only name you the people who are really close to me. those who i text every day, or most of the time. if you are reading this, and know that i text you, please do know that you in my list of close friends.  *********************************************************************************** i felt overwhelmed by the new people i met. and also, the works given to me was not that heavy actually. it just felt that way because people around me were giving me that impression. i never asked to be given such titles, but it was given to me anyway. people said, it was because i am new, and i don't have any commitments yet, that's why the titles are given to me. but,  i want to prove them wrong. i want to let them know, i am capable of doing it even though i am still new. i want to do my best in everything. though i am not perfect, but at least, i am giving my all. that is how i should feel.  people aroun

entry ini hanyalah luahan perasaan. geram dengan orang.  dulu, the first day here, kat selangor, R was kind enough to offer B to stay in the room with us. she didn't know her before.  so, at first, B was okay. R was always okay with me. she and i shared the same passion and love for music. we love food so much. unlike B who only ate rice once per day.   since we are on a budget, and the food here is freaking expensive, we decided to cook and eat home instead of dining out. cause if we cook, we could save up more. B sponsored us with rice, (beras), so R and i sponsored something else each. that's the deal.  all along, B has always been the girl who kept everything that belongs to her, in her room, and she has always spent her time in her room. by means, everything that belongs to her, food is also included. (the rice she promised to share)  there was the time when i wanted to cook the rice, i went up and took the rice packet downstairs with me. cause i can&