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i am now with him for nearly 5 years now. we've been dating since the last 4 years and last september we tied the knot after so many obstacles, cries, pains and bad memories. for me, 2016 was my changing year. i become who i am now because of what i've been through in 2016. 

anyway, what i wanted to say is, when you're married, it is really hard for us to be in the love mode. both of us were present at a time was probably because we are committed to it. to the marriage. 

but then, last sunday, we went out. dating. i forget the back pain, and all the pain that i am going through (i'm pregnant). and it was just sweet. revisiting our old dating places. 

first we went to ipoh for a purpose. then, he drove to Padang Polo Ipoh, which was a place we frequently went as a couple. and it was really nice to have those moments with him. first, when we parked the car, we both relaxed in the car. and we stared at each other like, you know those love birds who have just fallen in love? and he said, it's been a really long time since we do this. 

yes. we love to stare at each other and smile shyly. it's weird, but being able to do that in marriage, it's even more meaningful and sweet. we stared at each other while holding hands. i felt happy. real happiness. it felt like the time had stopped for both of us before we got into the time when both of us are really busy with working life. i love this small moment. 

and so, we walked a bit and got a place for us to sit down and just date.. we didn't even touch our phones. i just took my phone to record the present of both of us in the park. then we just observed the rest of the park visitors and we giggled about them. we looked at babies, parents, kids, and people who jogged there. 

then as we were buying food street, i even hugged him standing up. i dont care what people are gonna say about us or even wanna puke after looking at us, but i love doing that to him.