him

i was writing about how i felt just now, and ended up crying.. 

-.-'' 

and i went upstairs and called him, and yes, he's my painkiller. he knows exactly how to make me smile. 

and yes, sometimes it is annoying, but who doesn't annoy their own partners at times right?

but

that annoyance just makes me smiles. keep annoying me honey. haha. eh, don't. jangan selalu lah. 

and here i am, deleting the post i was writing just now. 

maybe it is best not to put those feelings into words. and heal it before it becomes encrypted and everyone will know. 

maybe it is best to talk to someone and let them hear you, let them scold you, let them nag at you, and talk, as long as you could.

cuz i did, and i feel better now. 

nearly an hour i was on the phone with him, most of the times i talked about how i felt and then men did what men know what to do, offering solution. 

and i heard him out because there were truths in his words. :) 

thank you honey, for being there, always. you're my only one. 

although he said, i needed to see a psychiatrist. all because i said, i am happy when i taste delicious food. -.-'' 

he said, i had the wrong purpose of eating. which is true.. 

he said, manusia makan untuk hidup, bukan untuk rasa bahagia. meh saya bawak awak jumpa psychiatrist kat tanjung rambutan, meh. 

he is never serious, we are totally different kot. haha. 

tapi, maybe dia serius part nak bawak aku jumpa psychiatrist tu.