bye bye brangelina

rest in peace brangelina

recently there is a news outbreak regarding Angelina Jolie and Brad Pitt's separation. and i read something about this from the page truth slap.

quoted truth slap in facebook:

1. there will never be a perfect relationship. sometimes, what we see on their social media accounts is the way opposite of the real situation.

2. trust your instincts. it has been reported that angelina has long been feeling that brad is cheating on her. then, she was right at the end.

3. being strong. angelina was even the one who filed the divorce. she's so strong that even if it hurts, she has to do it.

4. be independent. even if they will soon be on their separate ways, angelina can stand because she earns a living. she doesn't depend on her husband.

5. a cheater will always be a cheater. brad has long been rumored to have multiple relationships even before he met angelina.

6. some boys will always fall out of love once you are no longer as dazzling as before. remember that angelina isn't getting younger.she had cancer scares (her ovaries and fallopian tube were removed). as what they say, life begins at 40. havent you noticed that a lot of men cheated on their wife at this age range? and their reason is that their wife can no longer satisfy them.

reading this has made me hurt down to the gut of my stomach. 

why? probably because i have had bad experiences in relationships. 

you see, my relationship is not sugar and rainbow everytime. no it aint. at all

i have had my times with the tears and i went to the lowest point of my life i must say. and it just hurt me so bad just by thinking about it would make my whole day ruined. yes. 

so, i am just gonna live the moment, love as hard as i can. that is for sure. 

i pray for the best of us. i try not to go back to my past but when i sat down and just not think, the memories came to me like a ghost. it kind of haunted me. and at times i went down with it and felt disgusted about myself for the rest of my day and i spent my day on my bed, sleeping. trying not to think i guess. 

i am not brave. i am not strong. 

what i can conclude from my reading on truth slap page is that, YES, there is no such thing as a perfect relationship. as before i got married even my grandmother advised me, don't think when you got older you won't fight. this just means, in marriage it is not always rainbows. and once you are in a storm, fight while you can. and if it is the same fight every single time, you might want to rethink it again, is it worth it to be in the same fight? or is it worth it to just let it go? 

yes. some men cheat. you know why? because they are created like that. that is why Allah has allowed me to marry up until four women. because Allah knows best. but, if you are really lucky he wont cheat on you. but just because he cheated on you does not make him the worse man in this world. we women feel disgusted by the idea of cheating but lemme tell you something, WOMEN CHEAT AS WELL. girl, if your man is willing to re-do it with you, forgive him. BUT DO NOT LET HIM DO IT THE SECOND TIME. some people say, men never change. i dont know. i havent met even half of the men on earth i have no idea why people conclude that. but HUMAN itself is hard to change. i mean, can you change your nagging habit easily? i am sure you don't woman. most important dont blame each other for the things that happened. 

i am not an expert in any relationship. i made mistakes too in my relationship. but i try to shower my relationship with love and efforts. it is hard. especially for me now since we are a married couple but living apart from each other. but i try to make efforts and he did as well. 

being strong. this is very subjective. you can't force yourself to be strong but when it comes to it, you only have two choices, be strong or die. 

we only have to work on our relationship and make it happen instead of waiting for others to do it for you. 

remember, it is not about what your partner can offer to you, but it is about what you can offer to your partner. stop counting you are like this and that and he is this and that. tell you what, your spouse is supposed to the opposite of you. your partner should make you feel all sorts of feelings, be it love, anger, sad and anxious. it is the way you resolve your problems that counts. 

i wanted to rant more but i am running out of ideas so this is it for now from me. bye.